FORGIVENESS

Can’t escape my past
It’s a tail that is attached
Follows every where I go 
I’m always  looking back.

An unwelcome guest, my shadow
I want to be set free
Don’t want to be reminded
Of the way I used to be. 

It’s been years, two centuries
You’d think they would forget
But, when we see each other
It’s as bad … as it can get.

References, reminders, 
They just won’t let it go
Exposing all my past mistakes
Letting everybody know.

Could get a job on Main Street
At the local country store
But, the snickers and the comments
Might begin just like before.

I’m asking for forgiveness
I need a fresh, clean slate
I’ll do my best to make things right
Don’t think that it’s too late.

Hanging on to anger
Seeking vengeance and revenge
Won’t change a single thing I did
Why bring it up again? 

Is it simply paranoia
Imagined whispers, snide remarks?
Can I relax,  start over?
Let’s put down our shields and swords.

Want to pay my bills on time
Yes, I need to be employed
Gotta get a decent job
I am feeling so annoyed.

Stop bullying, harassing
I am sorry …. can’t you see?
I’ve been broken … cast aside
A lot has happened ….. look at me. 

Let it go, you won’t regret it
I am a different man
If you take the time…. you’ll see
And, begin to understand.

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