Author: Patty Richardson

What was it you were thinking
When you went home with her?
Were you intoxicated
How did this all occur?

Did you think that it would hurt me ?
Did you think it through and through?
Did you know ….what it would mean to me
If I knew…. she was with you?

My heart is truly broken
I’m feeling so betrayed
I believed all of of your promises
All the things you used to say.

Were you thinking it was over
Was there any thought of me?
Like a dagger thru my heart
Guess you’re happy…now you’re free.

Cut and dry, an easy out
You knew you’d never stay
You used me …. now you’re using her
In time …. you’ll walk away.

She thinks she found her soulmate
We both know that isn’t you
You’ll tell her what she wants to hear
She’ll never know the truth.

Money, fame and status
You always wanted more
Stocks and bonds …. prestige and class
That’s what you’re looking for.

I’m falling at the speed of light
Nothing to do….to make this right
Confused, unsure , I’m in the dark
Alone….amidst such hungry sharks.

Lost my grip, just out of reach
Abandoned on this sandy beach
The morning tide…. a brand new day
Somehow I’ve got to find a way.

All the lies …. the alibis
The reasons we should say goodbye
But, can’t give in …. no matter what
I’ve got to make this madness stop.

Battered, beaten …. ridiculed
Feeling like a worthless fool
Overlooked … pushed aside
All night long …. I cried and cried.

Holding on …. so hard… so tight
I can’t let go….no not tonight
The thought of letting go of you
Too much for me…. too much to lose.

The battle’s on…. the war is waged
I’m terrified …. yes, I’m afraid
Weapons drawn …. shields in place
The game is on …. no time to waste.

Pick your poison…. stake your claim
Someone has got to take the blame
Stand your ground.. don’t bend, you’ll break
Don’t let them see you sweat or shake.

The way you move
The way you talk
The way you stand
The way you walk.

Your voice …. your touch
That sweet perfume
You fill the air
Light up a room.

I couldn’t move
I couldn’t breathe
I knew how this
Would always be.

I’d sell my soul
To be with you
There was no one
No one like you.

The spark …..the heat
Extreme elation
Every thought
Every sensation.

Nothing compared
No one could know
Just how I felt
When we were close.

The stars…. the moon
The galaxy
You took me there
Excited me.

My inner thoughts
My wildest dreams
No one had known
Or ever seen!

There beyond
The dark blue light
I longed to be
With you each night.

Drawn to the heat
A roaring fire
A blaze of lust
Filled with desire.

A new song release…..

I’m feeling so helpless
Here…. stuck in the weeds
Can’t face it ….I’m not
I’m not who she needs.

No answers to questions
I’m too scared to ask
We’re not going to make it
It’s not going to last.

Friends say that I’m foolish
That I need to let go
So much she has hidden
So much I don’t know.

An ostrich …. a pigeon
One easy true mark
Left all alone
Now alone in the dark.

What’s left ….left to do
Nothing has changed
All that we have
Is more of the same.

Don’t cry over spilt milk
Let it go, just walk away
Don’t replay those conversations
All the things she used to say.

Time to let go and start over
It just wasn’t meant to be
Give it time, a new perspective
Like the butterfly…. set it free.

So many different options 
So many fish out in the sea
There is someone waiting for you
Who will love you tenderly.

One door closes, then one opens
Be receptive…. see the light
There ahead amidst the chaos
Everything will turn out right.

Though you’re feeling down ….dejected
Pick yourself up off the floor
Grab ahold and pull with all your might
That’s what bootstraps are made for.

You got this…. take it easy
Let your troubles fade away
A new day… a new beginning
Up ahead are better days.

She’s looking for a bad boy
I’ve been down this road before
I’m so tired of being second best
I can’t take it any more.

He doesn’t have a decent job
His car is ten years old
He’s living with his parents
But, he has her heart and soul.

I treat her right… I’m there for her
He’s out drinking with the guys
She’s all alone on Friday nights
She sits at home and cries.

Monday nights … football and beers
Chips, hoagies and hot wings
She merely is an after thought
She’ll never see a ring.

She likes em cool … brash, rude and rough
Who knows the reasons why
She likes to be mistreated
Has no use for a nice guy.

Saturdays … he rocks her world
She hangs out alone with him
She’ll probably get to stay the night
Spend the night in his basement.

Make-up on …. expensive shoes
Nails , hair and a new dress
He’s hanging out in dirty jeans
You know he could care less.

I’ve got a reservation
At a posh, new restaurant
I’d pick her up, I’d take her out
But,  I’m not what she wants.

She’s got her heart ….set on him
He’s got it going on
No job, no real potential
Still she wants to tag along.

In twenty years …. she’ll look back
It won’t do her any good
She’ll recall mistakes she’s made
All the should’a ,  could’a ….. woulds!

Thoughts of you  keep slipping through
Can’t get you off my mind
If only I had realized
Could have seen the warnings signs.

If only I could let you go
Let go of memories
I keep the photos in a drawer
The ones of you with me.

You’re not the one, the one I need
I finally see the truth
After all this time I know
I’m not in love with you.

But, I can’t stop the memories
Those feelings of regret
Can’t stop myself from feeling
I need to just forget.

It’s time to close and lock the door
Don’t want to think of you
You took my love …. you took my soul
You broke my heart in two.

We were young and foolish
Believed in love and fantasies
With demands and expectations
We fell in lust…. so easily.

The chemistry between us
That first kiss .. the thrill ….desire
Your touch …the need … the craving
Was enough to start a fire.

The roar …. the heat…. the thunder
Hotter than the burning sun
If I had …. just an inkling
I may have seen the smoking gun.

Blinded by …. the lure of passion
One massive, twisted crush
Overwhelmed with sweet temptation
That would be the death of us.

The surge that once propelled us
Lost momentum over time
You can’t sustain the wild, hot instincts
That consume your heart and mind.

The flames once raging have died down
All that remains are dust and ash
The smoldering ambers have lost their glow
That feeling couldn’t last.

DON’T COME ANY CLOSER
I’M STANDING  ON THE LEDGE
I DON’T NEED YOU TO TELL ME 
THAT I’M TOO CLOSE TO THE EDGE.

I WANT TO TRY…TRY TO BELIEVE
BUT WE BOTH KNOW YOU LIE
PLEASE DON’T SAY ANOTHER  WORD
I DON’T WANT TO START TO CRY.

DON’T COME ANY CLOSER
STEP BACK …. PLEASE WALK AWAY
DON’T MAKE IT ANY WORSE FOR ME
THERE’S NOTHING  MORE TO SAY.

12 FLIGHTS UP …. 3 SECONDS DOWN
IT WON’T TAKE  ME VERY LONG
I’LL HOLD MY BREATH ….  I’LL SAY A PRAYER
BEFORE I HIT THE GROUND.

ONE STEP CLOSER, ONE STEP MORE
IT WON’T TAKE MUCH  TO  FORGET
I DON’T WANT TO REMEMBER
ALL THE THINGS THAT YOU HAD SAID.

NEVER DOUBTED FOR A MOMENT
THAT WE’D ALWAYS BE IN LOVE
HAD NO IDEA THAT THINGS HAD CHANGED
THAT YOU HAD GIVEN UP.

DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT
IT WOULD TAKE US WAY TOO LONG
DON’T WANT TO HAVE TO REMINISCE
ABOUT WHAT WE DID WRONG.

DON’T NEED AN EXPLANATION
NO REASON TO ASK WHY
GUESS IF IT IS MEANT TO BE
I’LL SIMPLY LEARN TO FLY.