I CAN’T

No I can’t …. can’t count on you
Still can’t believe you left
Walked right out …. no looking back 
Just wish I could forget.

Why’d ya leave …. just disappear?
Why were you so damn cruel?
Why’d ya have to  leave me here?
I feel like such a fool.

All this while  …. it’s been so long
Since I laid eyes on you
Tried my best to get you back
But, nothing I could do.

Can’t let go … can’t  shake it off
The one I loved the most
Left me with a broken heart
Then headed for the coast. 

In the dark …. with thoughts of you
Feeling sad and blue
Can’t stop thinking about you now 
Still pining over you. 

HOOKED

I was feeling so alone
Till the night when we first met
I listened so intently
To the things that you had said.

That smile upon your face
That dimple on your chin
Your hair….so soft and long
Gently blowing in the wind.

You seemed so sure… so confident 
Never knew someone like you
“Will you take a walk with me
Though we’ve had a drink or two?”

It was late, but didn’t matter
I was hooked …. head over hills
Didn’t care what time it was
Loved the way you made me feel.

We headed down the rabbit hole
No need for sweet persuasion
I followed you so willingly 
Consumed with expectation.

The ins and outs ….. the twists and turns
Took us quickly round the bend
You took my hand, you held it tight
Right up until the end.

But, nothing lasts forever
Though I wished like hell it could
Things often end the way they are
They end the way they should. 

HEADFIRST

That look was in your eyes
I could feel it … I just knew
Before we kissed good night
I had a feeling about you.

I stepped right off the ledge
I felt a surge within
I jumped right in headfirst
Wanting to be more than friends.

With the stars and moon above
Everything appeared just  right
You looked into my eyes
Pulled me close and held me tight.

When we kissed for the first time
I knew we’d be together
Not only for tonight
But for always and forever.

The stars were glistening 
There was no one quite like you
I could feel something was happening 
It was clear…you felt it, too.

DOUBLE CROSSED

Don’t reach for me
I won’t be there
Don’t call my name
Don’t stop and stare. 

We came so far
Not far enough
I wasn’t quite
So strong … so tough.

Thought what we had
Could transcend time
I had no doubt 
That you were mine.

But foolishly
I never knew
I missed the signs
Ignored the clues.

You carried on
I sat at home
You knew that I
Was all alone.

I wanted you 
At any cost
Though knowing I’d been
Double crossed.

With blinders on
I muddled through
Told myself
I could trust you.

All the while
The end was near
There before me
Crystal clear. 

Found you with
Somebody else 
No thoughts of me
Here by myself.

It’s over now
Time to move on
Things will be better
With you gone.

No point 
In trying anymore
Let me show you 
To the door.

Here’s your coat
Please take your hat
Don’t want you here
Don’t want you back.

DID MY BEST

I watched you from the window
Watched you walk across the street
I knew that it was over
Though you tried to be discreet.

The bill sent from the florist
The excuse when I asked why
I smelled her sweet perfume
Did my best ….tried not to cry.

The candles …  and the flowers
No longer meant for me
I had to let you go
It was time to set you free.

The late nights …. way too often
I knew what you would say
I tried, but I just couldn’t
Couldn’t make you want to stay.

I couldn’t make you happy
There was no pleasing you
You said that you were sorry
Can’t you see it’s me …. not you?

My heart was badly damaged
It was broken, cracked in two.
No way that we could fix it
Even though I still loved you.


GOODBYE

That total empty feeling
That’s taken over me
A void so deep within my soul
Has drained my energy.

Quietly without a sound
No whistles and no bells
You had sadly given up
It was over… I could tell.

A spark that set my world on fire
Ignited every flame
Now had lost its amber glow
Each day was just the same.

No arguments, or unkind words
Just a sad  and empty stare
No parting explanation
You simply didn’t care.

No passion left , no tenderness
No twinkle in your eye 
Anxious to walk out the door
You simply said, “Goodbye”.

ON THE PROWL

Looking for that someone
That sparkle and that shine
Always on the prowl
Never know just what I’ll find.

Keeping my eyes open
I will do it all  again
No concerns or worries 
Now that we’ve become “just friends.”

Maybe at the coffee shop
Or cruising at the club
Waiting for that feeling
When you think that you’re in love.

The chemistry … the energy 
The way I felt for you
You’ve  been down this road before
You know just what I’ll do.

It won’t be  long, till she’ll be mine
I’ll whisper in her ear
Tell her what she wants to know
Just what she wants to hear.

I’ll rock her world, make her feel
Like she’s never felt before
But when I’m done, I’ll move on
I’ll walk right out the door.

The high can’t last forever
She’ll cry when I  move on
I’ll drop her like I did with you
In a heartbeat …. I’ll be gone.

JUST MY LUCK

There you were…. so beautiful 
Hair glistening in the sun
Knew my day was shot to hell
So much for summer fun.

A thousand people filled the streets
Yet, I ran into you
One in a thousand ain’t good odds
Not much that I could do.

Told my friends that you’d be here
Just my luck…. I’d see you, too
The stars, the planets all aligned
Directing me to you.

Time stood still … the waters parted
Our eyes met ….  like before
A wrinkle in time ….  A blip and a nod
Then you opened up the door. 

Pandora’s box …. A rabbit hole
You know this won’t end well
Seeing you …. Too much for me
A vision straight from hell. 

The same hot rush… Can’t help myself
I trembled in your arms
Even after all this time
I’m spellbound by your charm.

How you been? You look good
Words spoken in slow motion
Mesmerized … yet, terrified
Overwhelmed with raw emotion.

I’ll text you my new number
Let’s get together … we’ll catch up
Inside I  shouted to myself
Are you crazy? What the fuck?

Though anxiously …. I forced a smile
Then walked on down the street
Hoping this was the last time 
That we would ever meet.

PLEASE

Love sleeping close beside you
In the morning before dawn
See your head upon the pillow
Your skin so soft and warm. 

I’ve counted every minute
Every moment spent with you
Fearful you might walk away
Then leave me sad and blue.

I saw you at the coffee shop
Through the window sitting there
I saw you touch her face …. her lips
Then  stroke her long blonde hair.

Did you meet somewhere by accident
“On line” or in the park?
Was she someone that came on to you?
Did you meet there after dark?

Why can’t we talk about it?
Is she someone you just met?
What about the plans we’ve made?
Did you just forget?

What bothers you about me?
Are you  bored …. want someone new?
I can change my hair …. my clothes …. my nails
Please tell me what to do.