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An angel once  appeared to me
She was standing at my door
She came to help me with my cats
That’s what she had come for. 

Hard to believe unselfishly 
She came  to my rescue
Without any  expectations
Her heart…. so warm, so true. 

The cats were not afraid of her
Drawn  to her gentle touch 
It was obvious , so clear to me
They loved her very much. 

She would come to see them everyday 
Bring  water, food and  treats
She was there to take good care of them 
To fulfill  all of their  needs. 

You may not see her halo
Her wings are hidden too
But,  I know deep down …within my heart
She’s an angel through and through. 

Always thoughtful, kind and caring
She’ll reach out her hand to you
She will try and help you,  if she can
Do whatever she can do. 

So lucky to have met her
I feel blessed, grateful , so loved
Happy God sent me an angel
She was  sent from up above. 

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Down to the beach
You take your board
It’s heavy, strong 
Sleek and hard.

You paddle out 
Past the  break
You’ll wait as long
As it will take.  

The perfect wave 
With force, slight curve
The thrill to feel 
One with the surf. 

So skillfully
You stand so tall
So careful now 
Don’t want to fall. 

The wind felt now
Upon your face
You glide with ease
With skill , with grace. 

Seconds, minutes
Cherished time
The thrill , elation
One of a kind. 

The rush, the surge
The surfers’s high
Beckons you 
To want to try.

Another wave
Unlike before
Higher,  taller 
So much more.

You crave the thrill
Body and soul
It makes you feel 
Complete, now whole. 

A day spent 
At the beach, so grand
To feel the water
Touch the sand. 

Another chance
To ride the waves
No better way
To spend your days.

Your prayer, your solace
To be at one
With God, the ocean 
And, the sun.

I’m calling knowing you’re asleep
Don’t want to talk,  just hear you breathe
I know that I can’t be with you
There’s nothing left that I can do.  

I wear your shirt to bed each night
Pretend it’s you, though it’s not right 
The nagging pain, the grief, remorse
I blame myself, I do of course.

Another year, no word from you
Your job’s the same, your number too
Morning  walk through Central Park
So early….  it’s still damp and dark. 

I still can visualize your face, your eyes
The thought of you still makes me cry
Time hasn’t helped, my friends don’t know
No matter what, I can’t let go. 

I play it off, they think I’m fine
I don’t let on, inside I’m dying
They think I’m tough, I’m over you
Don’t know the truth , don’t have a clue. 

I miss your touch, your warm embrace
I’m feeling lost and yes erased
I met someone, but they’re not you
My heart is damaged… black and blue.

Hanging on, but you’re long gone
Nothing’s right, it feels so wrong 
Letting go…. too much for me
You don’t care, you’re done, you’re free.

I’m drowning in this shallow pond
How could you go leave, leave me behind? 
Never dreamt …. you’d go, you’d leave. 
I’m left to mourn , to pine, to grieve. 

Can’t shake it off, I’m sweltering 
Beneath this weight I’m carrying
Limerence, that feeling of ….
A sense of what ….. I thought was love. 

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GOOGLE IMAGES. Robert Plant and Alison Krauss.

On the dance floor
You moved closer
Kissed me slowly
It was over.

I had fallen
Was spellbound
Took me home
Hard to calm down.

My heart was racing
My mind swimming
That was only 
The  beginning. 

I moved in
Became your lover
Couldn’t get 
More of each other. 

In the shower
On the floor
In the kitchen
Against the door. 

Nothing held back
I gave in
Nothing questioned
Yes, I sinned. 

Until you lost 
That loving feeling
Right out of nowhere
Down from the ceiling. 

I was broken
You had to go
Someone was waiting
I didn’t know. 

I walked in circles
Not months, but years
Nothing now
Was ever clear. 

Gave it my all
But, not enough
You never wanted
What I call …. love. 

In disguise
Not someone real
You wanted flesh
To touch, to feel. 

Not meaningful
No depth or soul
You took it all
Till you were full.

My tears, a weakness 
Feelings, a crutch
I had to face it
There was no “us”. 

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Google Images: Techno Airlines.

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Poison from a labeled vial
I swallowed, yes and then I smiled
Nothing that I wouldn’t  do
To prove my love, my love for you. 

Another test, another hoop
Another game to play with you
A risk to take, a mountain high
I’ll do my best  to reach the sky.

Battles won, wounds to mend
Pain so deep …. beneath my skin
Broken bones, limb to limb
I’d do it all, do it again. 

A river wide, the middle deep
Though I was tired, I couldn’t sleep
The mud, the weeds … along the shore
Left me wishing there was more.

Once depleted, hit the wall 
I took the chance, answered  the call
Walked miles and miles on rough terrain
But, never once did I complain. 

The damage done, I slipped, I fell
Into the current, into the swell
The waves  intense , I lost control 
The water deep, so fierce, so cold. 

My chest was crushed, my spine now severed
No way they could put me together
The pain intense, I softly moaned
Felt like my head was made of stone.

I laid there helpless, I couldn’t move
Nothing more that I could do
The birds now circling overhead
Knowing full well, soon I’d be dead. 

I didn’t cry, I didn’t beg
You didn’t stay, you walked away
Someone new …. took the baton
I closed my eyes and you were gone. 

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Google Images. Pngtree.

Where is that person that I knew
The one that looked a lot like you?
A cloud of smoke, left in her place
Confused, ignored, removed, erased. 

In the dark, so vulnerable
Feelings now unbearable 
Can’t get back, my pride, my soul
The promises, packed up and sold.

Left no clues, no looking back
Reminds me of the things I lack
Contorted , twisted …. inside and out
Nothing left but fear and doubt. 

Somewhere deep,  deep down inside
I must have known, it was a lie
 Now  a stranger, a mere thief
Someone so distant, beyond belief. 

What happened to … the two of us
The way we were , the way it was?
All it took was just one look
I swallowed whole ….the bait, the hook.

Hard to accept, we were so close
Now just a dream, a phantom ghost
Did I imagine you were real 
Is this the way love ends, for real?

A cloud of smoke …. dark and gray
All consuming, swept away
The embers weakened, soon to fade
Nothing left to try and save.

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Google Images. Discogs.

These last remaining moments 
May be months or may be years
The pain that’s felt by others 
Makes me sad, brings me to tears. 

We take it all for granted
The sunlight, the clouds, the rain
Every breath we get to take in
Without feeling endless pain.

So many riddled with disease 
The grim reaper at their door
Wanting to be free of pain
Can’t take it anymore. 

The constant nagging struggles 
The worry and the fear
One step away from ruin
The end always, so near.

Never enough money
The hardships and the strain 
Watching others free of stress
Still others live with shame. 

Some anguish … facing the next test
Some breeze right on by
I can’t help but wonder
I keep asking myself why. 

Those trapped inside the towers
No way out, makes me insane
Can’t stop thinking about them 
And still,  we sit here and complain. 

The fear, the terror of that day
Permeates my mind
The tragedies of war, the grief
Who knows who’s next in line?

Earthquakes, shootings , floods and fires
The innocent to suffer
Evil lurks at every turn
Soon to be uncovered. 

The loss of limbs, the shock, the fear
Unsuspecting tragic ends
Why are the meek and innocent
Tortured over and over again?

Can’t abandon hope, or true belief
The  gates of heaven up above
Hold fast to those around you
 Those you cherish, those you love. 

Imagine all God’s children 
Free of pain, their limbs restored
No anguish, fear or misery
That’s what heaven is and more. 

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Google Images. Watermarkwaves.

The day that you met someone new
My life came to an end
No way I’d ever be the same
No never, never again. 

Told me you’d always love me
Thought we could still be friends 
Said , “it doesn’t have to  be this way
It doesn’t have to end”. 

Believed you were my soul mate 
But you wanted someone else
I was nothing but,  a broken toy
You’d left sitting on your shelf. 

Dance clubs, cocktails , out and about
No excuses or alibis
After work, you’d go out
While  I sat at home and cried. 

Greener grass,  something new 
One of a kind, that would be you
Always looking, on the prowl
So quick to quit, throw in the towel. 

Something better, beyond belief
Someone much better, better than me
Money matters, status, and fame
By now you’ve forgotten, forgotten my name.

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Google Images: Parenting with scripture.

Another scorching weekend
No picnics or barbecues
Too hot to sit out in the sun
When the temperatures’s 102.

The sweat runs down my forehead
The pool water’s boiling hot
My skin is turning lobster red
Going in, ready or not!

Let’s go eat some hotdogs
We can cook them on the stove
Baked beans with some potato chips
Go great with fresh, baked rolls. 

The water in the swimming pool
It’s too hot, too hot to swim
We’ll have to go down to the park
To use the indoor gym. 

The A /C is a blessing 
When the temperature’s too high
I could feel my skin begin to boil 
While my hair began to fry. 

We’ll play board games at the table
Dominoes and Scrabble , too
Rumi Cube and card games
Just to name a few. 

We can watch our favorite movies 
 You can play your video games
Hang out and spend some quality time
Before going out again.

Let’s wait till the sun goes down
In the evening after six
The temperature more tolerable then
For us adults and little kids. 

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Google images. GIPHY.

They tell me not to call you
No contact, it’s for the best
Hold back, restrain, wait it out
Knowing that you could care less. 

Alone to face this heartache
The depth of pain beyond belief
You chose to be with someone else 
Someone you’d rather have, than me. 

I told you every secret
Gave you my soul to keep
Thought what we had … was magical 
It was, it was for me. 

Too quick to trust, to value
A love that wasn’t there
In the end, a mere placeholder
To get from here to there. 

A stepping stone, a respite
Not permanent, who knew?
I built my world around you
Now, I don’t know what to do. 

Hearts scattered along the roadway
Too many to collect
One day, you’ll find the one you want
The one you will select. 

Not for love, I’m sure of that 
But, for their portfolio 
Money reigns , top of your list
That much I surly know. 

A certain polished lifestyle
Trips abroad, a lovely home
A garden to be proud of 
And, a house made out of stone. 

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Google Images. Witt Law Group.