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A powder keg about to blow
Your fuse is short …. you can’t let go
You get your way …. you make a scene
You pitch a fit …. you shout and scream.

Feathers ruffled …. voices loud
Don’t know what this is all about.
Out of control …. can’t get you back
Always on guard … to pounce …. attack.

There’s no pill …. to bring you down
Before you’re done …. you’ll hit the ground.
No way to know …. what will ignite
Fuel your rage and start a fight.

Not so much fun to be around
Afraid to speak or make a sound
Everything I say or do
Sets you off and annoys you.

What can I do to make you see
You’re hurting you …. you’re hurting me?
Everyone is trying hard
To keep you calm …. right from the start.

But, stress and tension seem to find
You in distress …. most of the time
I’ll step away … away from you
There’s nothing more that I can do.

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Can’t come down
If I wanted to
Can’t stop myself
From hurting you.

Out of control 
Out of my mind
It always happens
Every time.

I start to climb
I shake …. I shiver
I can’t let go
I start to quiver. 

Like I’m possessed 
I’m in a trance
Can’t stop this feeling
I know …. I can’t.

The rage ….. the fury
Anger within
The force … the power 
It all begins.

No rhyme or reason
No alibis
I’m in the zone
Can’t weep ….  can’t cry.

Won’t give in
Won’t bend … won’t bow
I’m flying high
I’m soaring now.

I can’t stop
No reasoning 
Can’t get to me
No catering.

I’m right ….. you’re wrong
Feel justified
High on my horse
It’s do or die. 

Yes, I’m unstable
I’m off the wall
I’m full of anger 
About to fall.

I need a doctor
I need some help
I can’t control
Control my self.

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I know you’re feeling overwhelmed 
It seems apparent …. one can tell
When you’re bursting at the seams
You do and say … things you don’t mean.

Everyone is trying to help
Why don’t you stop the urge to yell?
The slightest comment sets you off
This is not what you were taught.

Your children stand there paralyzed
Can’t you see they’re terrified?
What kind of message are you sending?
Look at their faces… they are cringing.

Stop looking for ….  someone to blame
Life’s  not a contest …. or  a game
Stop  projecting all your fears 
Why not step back …. start shifting gears?

So defensive … maybe unsure
Don’t need to be ….. so insecure
Don’t be so quick … quick to react
Put up your guard…. start  to attack.

Don’t bite the hand that tries to help
You’re not alone …. not by yourself
After all that you’ve received
You push away the ones you need. 

All the rage you have within
Is going to hurt you in the end
You’ll be standing all alone
Those that cared …. will all be gone.

No one can stop you … once you start
You push ahead .… you go too far
The stress won’t do you any good
Why won’t you act the way you should?

It doesn’t matter if you’re right
Sometimes it’s better not to fight
Take the high road …. let it go
Don’t let your feelings always show.

Contain your anger … get a grip 
Find a lid …. to put on it
Show your strength by self control
Make staying calm … your quest, your goal. 

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Spare me the drama and
Those crocodile tears
Don’t mean what they did
When I first got here.

Like in a movie 
You’re playing a part
You turned on the tears
Before breaking my heart. 

Nothing about you
Is honest or true
It took me awhile
But I see right through you.

You set the stage
The candles … the wine
I was enthralled 
With you every time. 

But, you’re  an imposter
A fake ….. just a con
You’ll take what you want
And then you’ll be gone.

So many dreams 
So many lives
Crushed in your wake
When you say Goodbye. 

Innocence …. kindness
The challenge …. the fun
The grief and the sadness
Before you are done. 

A beautiful cover
With an empty shell
A glimpse at the devil
Coming straight out of hell.

Off the leash…. running 
So wild and so free
Releasing the child
The child within me.

Letting go of the anguish
Learning to fly
Walking away
With my head held up high.

Giving in …. having to
Just give it up
It’s time to face it
Yes …. I’ve had enough.

Don’t ask any questions
Don’t weep …. no, don’t cry
Sometimes it gets better
When we say Goodbye.

Up in the clouds
Beyond the stars
Utopia waits
Though it seems …. oh so far.

No time to waste
There’s fun to be had
Stop being so angry
Stop being so mad

Let it all go
Run like the wind
This is your chance 
To start over again.

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It’s so hard to say that I’m sorry
I know it’s too little …. too late
I’ve paid the price …. paid the Piper
I knew you weren’t destined to wait.

I’ve lived with the shame and the sorrow
I’ve regretted it all of my life
I hurt the one person who loved me
I know I was wrong …. you were right. 

I wanted it all …. I  was selfish 
Nothing more than a petulant child
Spinning round in a circle …. going nowhere
Like a dog ….off  a leash ….. running wild.

All I ask is for you to take notice
Know that I take the blame for it all
Not a day passes by without feeling
I should  have humbled myself …. should have crawled.

Should have begged and asked your forgiveness
For the pain that I caused in the end
There’s no excuse  for everything that I did to you 
Wish that I could start over again. 

For now hope that we’ve  calmed the waters
Put to rest all the anger and scorn
No more feelings of rage and resentment 
We’ve dealt with the worst of the storm.

In the end … seems you found what you wanted
Someone stable … someone honest and true
You found love in the midst of the chaos
Please just know ….that I’m happy for you. 

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Every hesitation
Every warning sign
Every bit of caution
Vanished ….. left behind.

No way I could say…. no to you
No way I could resist
I knew that it was over
The first time that we kissed.

The stage was set before me
Well constructed … well designed
The Wine …. Champagne …. the Caviar
The perfect play each time.

Feeling high .… intoxicated
A victim of your spell
An evil demon in disguise
Straight from the bowels of hell.

Your hair ….. your breath …the perfect scent
I was mesmerized
Gave into you….no questions asked
I’d been hypnotized.

Who knew that it would never last
Abruptly…. cast aside
You laughed when tears fell from my eyes
When I began to cry.

Another foolish victim
Came straight …. right thru the door
Unsuspecting …. pure … so naive
Looking for something more.

So welcoming …. all encompassing
You knew how to draw me in
That pretty face …. those dimpled cheeks
That cunning charming grin.

When asked to leave … no parting words
Nothing to come back to
Just a glimpse …. a memory
Of what you made me do.

A taste of lust and madness
You had come … come for my soul
You brought me to the brink of hell
So evil …. cruel and cold.

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Who knew that we were meant to be?
Such simple chemistry
I saw you standing at the bar 
You turned and looked at me. 

Just a glance …. a smile …. a look
Somehow it felt so right
I wanted you to want me , too
Was this my lucky night?

The DJ played my favorite song
You reached out for my hand
You led me to the dance floor
You said …. “Come on, let’s dance”!

No second thoughts to hold me back
No need for plaguing doubts
I knew it was …. love at first sight 
You stood out from the crowd.

You had it all…. such style and charm
That mesmerizing voice
Nowhere on earth I’d rather be
I knew I’d made my choice.

You whispered, “Please come home with me
Don’t want to be alone”
I felt a wave come over me
Felt chilled right to my bones.

A glass of wine by candlelight
Your stunning silhouette
My face was flushed …. I felt a thrill
Something I can’t forget.

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Afraid to move …. might wake you up
Here cradled in your arms 
I feel your breath upon my neck
Your body feels so warm. 

I’m marred by loss of virtue
Too ashamed to face the truth
Afraid to try and walk away
Afraid of waking you.  

No meaningful attachments
My focus set on you
No friends that I can turn to
I don’t now what I should do.

A pitiful existence
Living out your fantasies
A life that’s lived for someone else
Leaves nothing left for me.

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