Author: Patty Richardson

A box filled with darkness
Was your parting gift
No hope of a future
Left inside of it.

Wounded, left forsaken
Badly battered , black n blue
You took all that you wanted
I was sadly being used. 

Never doubted, never wondered
Believed everything you said
The lies and all the whispers 
I never will forget .

All the plotting and the planning
When did it all begin?
Seems you had a quest , a motive
Always knew how this would end.

I followed you so willingly
Down a dark, black, rabbit hole
I gave you  my all  I had to give
My body and my soul.

Masterfully done
I would have to agree
You took what you wanted
You took it from me.

A demon disguised
So charming , so shrewd
I was lured into madness
The day I met you.

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Never thought….. that you’d betray me
The thought of you, still makes me cry
You totally embarrassed me
Tell me, please…..please tell me why.

No hope to save my dignity
Not now … not after this
There for all the world to see
Why didn’t I resist?

Believed you when you promised me
You’d be the only one
Who knew you’d break a solemn vow?
You did it just for fun.

Told your friends, your buddies

Shared pics on your cell phone.

I can’t go back to school again.

I can never go back home.

Photos taken in the dark
Were meant for your eyes only
What am I supposed to do?
My family will disown me.

Wish I could go back in time
I feel like such a fool
Everyone is laughing now
I can’t go back to school.

Mistakes unfold with consequence
Just didn’t think it through
Believed you when you said to me
Babe, I’ll take good care of you.

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By the time I saw you
I was three sheets to the wind
Been out with friends…was partying
Since quarter after ten.

You knew my late night habits
Knew where I’d be tonight
You always have an angle
We both know …. this isn’t right.

Saw you from a distance
Heard you moved, moved out of town
Nothing here, nothing for you
No need to hang around.

Bitter sweet, it still hurts
You left, walked out on me
Nothing’s going to come of this
Nothing here for you to see.

Tripped and fell so hard for you
I fell head over heels
Not going to make the same mistake
I know how bad it feels.

Confused, unsure, out of control
Obsessed , in lust with you
Upside down , turned inside out
Still broken, black and blue.

Why you here, why’d ya come?
Want more …. more of the same?
Finish up your drink and leave
Please don’t come back , again!

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Can we meet for coffee
Can you get away?
I’ll meet you on the corner
Let’s meet at our cafe.

Been busy, writing, playing
Setting up my studio
Found a brand , got a band
Cranking out some stereo.

Let’s take our coffee to the beach
Just like we used to do
Feels so great to just hang out
To spend some time with you .

Can’t get back together
Even if we wanted to
Let’s enjoy the afternoon
Love spending time with you.

Tied the knot, you couldn’t wait
You gave up on me
Thought that you would always be
Here waiting patiently.

Foolish me… to fantasize
After how I treated you
Got what I deserved, for sure
Nothing more that I can do.

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Image by….. BIG STOCK

On the hunt, on the prowl 
Always looking for the prize
Another shiny trinket 
There before your eyes.

Broken hearts, shattered dreams
Stepped over, cast aside
Carelessly , haphazardly
You told so many lies.

Stepping stones … one by one
So sure to get ahead
Taking what you want or crave
Whatever you could get.

Whimsical , flirtatious
So confident… so sure
Wrapped around your finger

I was heart and soul…. all yours.

Every plot and indiscretion
Every single step you’d take
Always calculated
To minimize mistakes.

Deceiving and misleading
No regrets , no restless nights
No concern for pride or trust
No regard for what is right.

Abandoned, yes forsaken
As cunning as a shark
Nothing less…. expected
From …The Queen of Broken Hearts.

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I shouldn’t have to worry
Or be scared to go to school
I shouldn’t be afraid of you
Or what you’re going to do.

The anger and the evil
Is brewing deep inside
Wondering if this could be
The day that I might die.

18 years …still just a boy
Who sold that gun to you?
What government approved the sale
Knowing what that gun could do?

That kind of gun in your hands
Can shred and tear apart
The tissues, bones and organs
Including my own heart.

The clerk behind the counter
Did he question or doubt you?
Why didn’t he refuse to sell
That body armor, too?

So obvious you needed help
But, now it is too late
If only someone had said “no”
They could have changed our fate.

The money made at our expense
By the NRA
Is protected by the senators
Who know they’ll get their way.

Their status and positions
Mean more to them you see
They don’t care about the lives
Of children just like me.

My innocence, my childhood
Now covered in the blood
Shed by my friends and teachers
Can’t you see enough’s enough?

Change the laws … Ban the guns
Don’t just walk away
Stop the senseless killings
Please… you’ve got to find a way!

A powder keg about to blow
Your fuse is short …. just can’t let go
Can’t get your way ?…. You make a scene
You pitch a fit …. you shout and scream.

Feathers ruffled …. can’t let go

Can’t stop yourself , you’ve sunk so low

Out of control …. Can’t get you back
You’re on guard … to pounce, attack.

There’s no pill …. to bring you down
Before you’re done …. you’ll hit the ground.
No way to know …. what will ignite
Fuel your rage and start a fight.

Not so fun …to be around
Afraid to speak or make a sound
Everything I say or do
Sets you off and bothers you.

What can I do to make you see
You’re hurting you …. you’re hurting me?
Everyone is trying hard
To keep you calm …. right from the start.

But, stress and tension seem to find
You in distress …. most of the time
I’ll step away … away from you
There’s nothing more that I can do.

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Can’t come down
If I wanted to
Can’t stop myself
From hurting you.

Out of control 
Out of my mind
It always happens
Every time.

I start to climb
I shake …. I shiver
I can’t let go
I start to quiver. 

Like I’m possessed 
I’m in a trance
Can’t stop this feeling
I know …. I can’t.

The rage ….. the fury
Anger within
The force … the power 
It all begins.

No rhyme or reason
No alibis
I’m in the zone
Can’t weep ….  can’t cry.

Won’t give in
Won’t bend … won’t bow
I’m flying high
I’m soaring now.

I can’t stop
No reasoning
Can’t get to me
No pandering.

I’m right ….. you’re wrong
Feel justified
High on my horse
It’s do or die. 

Yes, I’m unstable
I’m off the wall
I’m full of anger 
About to fall.

I need a doctor
I need some help
I can’t control
Control my self.

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I know you’re feeling overwhelmed 
It seems apparent …. one can tell
When you’re bursting at the seams
You do and say … things you don’t mean.

Can’t you see…. we want to help?
Why don’t you stop the urge to yell?
The slightest comment sets you off
I know it’s not … what you were taught.

Your children stand there paralyzed
Can’t you see they’re terrified?
What kind of message are you sending?
Look at their faces… they are cringing.

Stop looking for ….  someone to blame
Life’s  not a contest …. or  a game
Stop  projecting all your fears 
Why not step back …. start shifting gears?

So defensive … maybe unsure
Don’t need to be ….. so insecure
Don’t be so quick … quick to react
Put up your guard…. start  to attack.

Don’t bite the hand that tries to help
You’re not alone …. not by yourself
After all that you’ve received
You push away the ones you need. 

All the rage you have within
Is going to hurt you in the end
You’ll be standing all alone
Those that cared …. will all be gone.

No one can stop you … once you start
You push ahead .… you go too far
The stress won’t do you any good
Why won’t you act the way you should?

It doesn’t matter if you’re right
Sometimes it’s better not to fight
Take the high road …. let it go
Don’t let your feelings always show.

Contain your anger … get a grip 
Find a lid …. to put on it
Show your strength by self control
Make staying calm … your quest, your goal. 

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