Author: Patty Richardson

Feeling dirty
Feeling weird
Never thought
I’d end up here.

Got that icky
Slimy feel
Like I need
A body peel.

Something creepy
Something strange
Could be the crud
Could be the mange.

Down and Dirty
In the mud
Not the way
I thought it was.

The smoking, toking
Getting high
The trickery
The bold faced lies.

Giving all
I got to give
But, in my back
I feel the shiv.

Nothing sacred
No holes barred
This has gotten
Way too hard.

Friends won’t
Take you for a ride
Steal your joy
Or take your pride.

Giving up
Or giving in
This dirty dance
Has got to end.

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Image: Google Images. Alamy.

I was crushed…yes, devastated
I couldn’t catch my breath
Gut punched and blindsided
Could not believe the things you said.

A million lame excuses
You were frantic to explain
Why this all was happening
Why you felt, I was to blame.

My hands would not stop shaking
My heart began to break
It was shattering into pieces
Make it stop , for heaven’s sake.

I begged you to be quiet
It was more than I could bear
The words unclear and jumbled
But, you simply didn’t care.

So anxious and impatient
You were eager to move on
It wasn’t long….you left that night
By morning you were gone.

I heard you close and lock the door
You walked out on me
You walked away, no looking back
In the mailbox…. was the key.

Weeks went by, now decades passed
Nothing more that I could do
Just wish I could stop thinking
Stop thinking about you.

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Image: Google Images. Vecteezy. Shutterstock.

I can’t believe you’re with me
My head’s spinning all around
Feeling kind of dizzy
I’m ten feet off the ground.

Feeling high, intoxicated
Chills up and down my spine
Elated, charmed, enchanted
Can’t believe that you are mine.

Got my arms around you
I’m holding on so tight
Every minute I am with you
Feels so good, it feels so right.

Chorus:

Right down to the bone, baby
Right down to the bone
I finally found my way back
I found my way back home.

Can weather any thunderstorm
Know that we’ll make it thru
Nothing matters more to me
Than spending time with you.

The look of love in your eyes
The sound of your sweet voice
Blocks out all the madness
Drowns out all the noise.

The comfort and the solace
The peace that I now feel
So hard… I can’t believe it
But, it’s happening, it’s real.

Chorus:

Feel it….right down to the bone, baby
Right down to the bone
I finally found my way back
I found my way back home.

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Image: Google Images, Stuart Wade, Owner.

All I ever wanted
My dream at last came true
Why did I let my guard down?
Why did I fall for you?

A moment’s hesitation
That look into your eyes
Every doubt or second guess
Had vanished, passed me by.

STARDUST
STARDUST IN MY EYES

A dream made straight from fantasy
It happened way too fast
The lust and all the passion
Was surly meant to last.

The longing and the pleasure
The fire, the constant heat
Never, have I ever
Felt so loved and so complete.

STARDUST
STARDUST IN MY EYES

But, one day without warning
You turned and walked away
No need for me to beg and plead
I couldn’t make you stay.

Never knew what I did wrong
To make you want to leave
Believed you every time you said
You were so in love with me.

A dream made straight from fantasy
A heart made out of glass
The love and all the passion
Was never ….

Never meant to last.

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Image: Google Images, Stardust on steam.

He can see the way you look at me|
You know this isn’t fair
He doesn’t talk about it
Doesn’t mean, he doesn’t care.

Every gesture, nod and whisper
He watches every move
It’s no secret, it’s apparent
That I feel something for you.

The chemistry between us
He’s aware, he knows it’s there
In our bedroom, something’s missing
He won’t say it, wouldn’t dare.

When we sit at home together
Watch a movie, drink some wine
He puts his arm around me
Wants to show you…”She is mine”!

He’s not angry, doesn’t blame you
But, afraid you stayed too long
He feels threatened, he is worried
He’ll feel better, once you’re gone.

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Image: Google Images, Twitter(moot elsewhere).

Don’t take me on vacation
To try and ease the blow
Don’t think it makes it easier
Don’t think that I don’t know.

The memories, the photographs
The wine, the candlelight
The time we spent together
Especially, last night.

There’s really nothing I can do
Since you’ve made up your mind
You finally found somebody else
Now, you’re no longer mine.

Can’t stop myself from thinking
Bout the two of you together
What about the two of us?
What happened to forever?

Did you meet her on the internet?
In a chat room or a bar?
Did you tell her, that you loved her?
Have you gone a bit too far?

I assume she is much younger
You’ve had a thing for younger girls
Is she chic, sophisticated
In her high heels and her pearls?

Bet she’s everything you’ve wished for
The opposite of me
Does she prefer black coffee
Or an herbal English tea?

Guess she’s taller, and much thinner
Makes good money, her fair share
Gotta stop myself from asking
Cause, I really shouldn’t care.

Just a morbid curiosity
Can’t seem to help myself
Maybe, I need a therapist
Gonna need to get some help.

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Image: Google Images, Steam

Spent the day walking round
In circles all day long
Wishing I could figure out
Just where I did go wrong.

Too much indecision
No direction to speak of
Lacking motivation
Fuck, now….I’m shit out of luck.

Knew that you were driven
Figured it was OCD
Didn’t think that you would notice
What the hell is wrong with me.

Miles apart, a wasteland
No way to get you back
I had lost my compass
Got derailed, so far off track.

Waited for a miracle
A sign, a wish come true
But, nothing’s gonna change your mind
We both know…I lost you.

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Image: Google Images, Soundcloud

Don’t dare let your guard down
Shields up, prepare to fight
Stand your ground, hold the line
You know, that you are right.

Never waiver, never sweat
Stand tall, pick up the pace
You’ve got strength and power
They can see it on your face.

Stare them down, lean and mean
Don’t act like you’re afraid
They all know, where you’ve been
Truth is, you’ve got it made.

A show of force, they understand
Sad, but oh so true
Be strong, be brave, courageous
You’ve got to see this through.

Once they know, you won’t back down
They will walk away
In the end, you will know
You held your own today.

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Image: Google: Hold The Line, holdthelineshop.com

In the cafe, near the window
There she was….sitting alone
I just left a friend’s house
Smoked a joint, then headed home.

Stopped to get some coffee
When I heard her call my name
Walked over to her table
No surprise, she looked the same.

CHORUS:

Cheyanne, I can’t believe it
Can’t believe you’ve come back home
Am I asleep…. still dreaming?
I’m so high….I’m pretty stoned.

We sat and talked for hours|
It felt just like old times
Laughing, reminiscing
Bout the days, we left behind

She gave me her new number
Like she did, when we first met
Looking back, so long ago
Those times I can’t forget.

Flashbacks, once upon a time
When things got pretty tough
Me with her, her with him
How did we fuck it up?

CHORUS:

Cheyanne, I can’t believe it
Can’t believe you’ve come back home
Am I asleep …. still dreaming?
I’m so high….I’m pretty stoned.

Everything about her
Her hands, her eyes, her hair
All so captivating
Had to know, that I still cared.

Parted on the corner
Walked a block, then said goodbye
Said she hoped I’d call her
Had to know that I was high.

CHORUS:

Cheyanne, I can’t believe it|
Can’t believe you’ve come back home
Maybe I’m just dreaming|
I’m so high….I’m pretty stoned.

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Image: Google Images, Beneath the Tangles.

All the jealous rants
The outbursts and the rage
The baseless accusations
Not becoming for your age.

Senseless conversations
Redundant and absurd
The needling, the probing
Twisting every single word.

All the insecurities
Unending conversations
Nothing more than rubbish
Pointless , senseless condemnation.

The constant finger pointing
Your frantic OCD
Makes you seem unbalanced
Now a detriment to me. 

I think you need a doctor 
Or some psychotherapy
You’re on a course to nowhere 
Hell bent on stalking me. 

Grasping for some answers
Always needing to control
Desperate to have dominance
This saga’s getting old. 

Let go, step back, stop wailing
There’s nothing here to see 
Go about your business
Stop trying to hurt me.

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Image from Google Images: Marriage Missions