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Out of control
Circling the drain
Can’t make it stop
The fear and the pain.

“This too shall pass”
But, just don’t know when
It keeps right on coming
Again and again.

Over the top 
Out of my mind
I need some relief
So tired of crying.

Nowhere to go
No sanction
My burden’s too much
Too heavy to carry.

Gotta lay down
Put up my shield
I’m overwhelmed

Need time to heal.

Looking for peace
Got to step away
Need time alone
To reflect and to pray. 

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You truly have a heart of gold
Never thinking of yourself
Always there to lend a hand
Always there to help.

Now angels wait beside the gate
To welcome you with love
It brings us peace… knowing you’re
Looking down from up above. 

Free of pain and suffering
Loved by everyone
Two daughters who love and cherish you
Your husband and your son.

Your grandchildren send their love
They always will remember
The love you gave, your thoughtfulness 
Your hugs so warm and tender. 

No better aunt or mother
Cousin or a friend
Always there to love us all
Right to the very end.

Trinkets, treasures, paper dolls
You gave us everything
Anything to make us smile
You surly earned your wings

You’re an angel now in heaven
We’ll think of you each day
Bow our heads, close our eyes
As we knell to pray. 

Blessings, our sweet NeeNee
We send you our deepest love
Among the stars, the sky, the clouds
In heaven up above.

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It was something special
The chemistry felt right
I wanted to be near you
Get close to you that night.

I followed you…. so willingly
No caution lights appeared
Blindly giving into you
You said the coast was clear. 

Nothing else could matter
I was bewitched, drawn to your charm
Consumed with being next to you
Being  held tight in you arms.

Feathers, teeth and broken bones
All that was left of me
When you finally  said, “ Goodbye.
You told me to go…. to leave. 

Devastated, hurt, confused
Felt a stab right thru my heart
Would not  survive this fatal blow
My world now torn apart. 

She was tall, thin and attractive
Her  key, opened your  door
I stood alone across the street
I was replaced, that much was sure. 

It was all too good to be true
A hard lesson to be learned
I played with fire until the end
Eventually got burned. 

She drove a Maserati
She had a certain style
Had to  be your beneficiary 
Wondered if….she’d stay awhile. 

Money, class and status
You were always wanting more
Someone who could buy your love
That’s all that you wished for.

“Money talks, nobody walks”
I’ve heard this phrase before
Had no idea you felt this way
Till you showed me the door.

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The sun, a fiery globe, slips slowly into the horizon
The clouds part, darkness now imminent 
The ending of this day …. marks the beginning of a welcomed revitalization
The ground hog burrows, as birds settle into their nests. 

The day is done, a new day dawns.
Deadlines met, ideas reborn 
The dogs, the cats ….. lie comfortably in their beds 
Bring down the curtain, turn down the sheets… night has fallen.

Awaken, renew …. the sun begins to rise.
A glimpse of a fiery storm …. peeking out from the horizon
Where will this new day eventually lead?
No clouds in the sky …. alas, pure perfection.

The orange of the globe, against the waves of blue
Violet & indigo …. a mix of hues
The ideal of wonderment …. of reflection 
Mother Nature offers  a universe filled with miracles. 

In astonishment, we look upon her radiance
With delight, we bathe in the heat of her rays
The rings of a tree, the ebb and flow of the tides, as well
Leave us enchanted, nearly hysterical. 

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Tried my best to stay away
But, there I stood outside her door
When she answered,  I knew at once
She didn’t love me anymore. 

She  stepped outside, then closed the door
“What are you doing here?”
“I need you”, I pathetically replied
Then she said the words I feared. 

“I’m not alone , you have to go
You can’t show up like this!”
“We just broke up and you’re with her? 
I feel so powerless.”

“You should have called or sent a text
This could have been avoided”
“It’s only been a few  weeks, now”
“Do you know.… it’s 2 in the morning?”

There were tears and a warm embrace
A sad look  in her eyes
But, I knew.….it was clear
There was no hope or chance to try. 

I finally hailed a yellow cab
She waited  till I got in
Could not believe she found someone
And that.….this was the end!

Broken hearted , devastated
I was now heading home 
She went back to someone new
While I went home alone. 

She had moved on….was ready to
What we had could not be fixed
No special charm, a spell or wish
Just one last, parting kiss. 

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It could happen without warning
After three decades of grief
What are the odds of seeing you?
Doubt you’d  remember me.

Not a single day goes by
Without a painful memory
I could say it doesn’t matter
But,  it still does bother me.

Do you even recognize me?
Can you recall my name? 
I’m the one that’s still in  mourning
I’m the one that’s still in pain!

Heard that you had gotten married
How much is her dowry worth?
Must be quite a fortune 
If you’re  still living with her. 

Do I sound like I am bitter?
You’re damn right, I am
You pulled me in, used me up
It’s you ….who is to blame. 

Told me that you loved me
Then took off my clothes
Did things to me repeatedly
Things  no one will ever know. 

So much shame and heartache
You were my worst mistake 
Standing here, seeing you
Makes my body shake.

My number? Are you kidding?
I never want to see you again
You’re a narcissist, a psychopath 
You are and have always been. 

Evil lies within you
Surging through your veins 
You better keep your distance
Don’t come near me, ever again! 

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The guys that we encounter
In their pinstriped business suits
Drinking Makers on the rocks 
Wearing black Ferragamo shoes. 

In Finance or Engineering 
With a degree from MIT
They’re looking for a Kardashian
That’s anyone, but me. 

I waste my time on Friday nights
Drink Martinis with my friends
Every weekend is the same
I go home alone,  again.

These guys are fast and furious
Some working on Wall Street
They live to score, that’s how they are
Not the type… I’d like to meet. 

No morals or a conscience
That’s how they get ahead
All they really want to do
Is get you into bed.

Some of them are married
Out cheating on their wives
Have no problem bullshitting
They’re used to telling lies.

What I want is to get married
Buy a house and have some kids
I’m wasting time… here and now
So I left, that’s what I  did. 

On my way down to the subway
A man had caught my eye
We stood out on the platform
Alone, just he and I. 

The clasp on my purse was broken
I dropped my keys and lipstick, too
He offered to help me, pick them up
He said, “Let me help you.”

“Want to get a cup of coffee?
There’s a  diner on 53rd”
I nodded yes, then I smiled
Didn’t say another word.

Turned out he is a fireman
At the station near the club
We shared a cup of coffee
And at that moment, fell in love.

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Feeling old before my time
Every bone and joint bears witness
One day it’s knees , then feet and toes
A leg cramp or a blister.

Can’t carry more than just five pounds
Have my  groceries home delivered 
Up and down a flight of stairs
Just makes me shake and quiver. 

Always tired…. exhausted
Time for me to take a nap
Could not go on, had to lay down
Worried I might get too fat.

Bought a yoga mat and free weights
Thought I’d workout on my own
After  one attempt to exercise
Thought that I had broke a bone. 

I heard a crack with my first stretch
Couldn’t move or get off the floor
Had to call 911
They came rushing through the door!

Two strong young men …scooped me up
Sat me down upon the sofa
I was fine, once they left
Made myself a pink mimosa. 

I’m giving up or giving in
Going to relax and watch TV
Tomorrow is another day
Might try again, we’ll see.

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Sailing down the river
Our day has just begun.
Maneuvering through currents
Navigating every one.

The wind , the sun, the water 
The elements abound
The craft, a sturdy vessel 
Sails passed each little town.

From Hudson to Poughkeepsie
We travel with full sails
Hoping the wind will blow us by
With gusts that never fail. 

A seven day river journey
We set sail at dawn’s daylight
The beauty of the sky above 
The sun that shines so bright.

The feel of rope and canvas
The buoy lights at night
The peaceful serene feeling
Underneath the pale moonlight.

A wavering wind propels us
There’s a cool night’s summer breeze
No other place in this whole world 
Would I rather be.

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Feeling such deep remorse 
After all the years gone by
Wish that I could take it back
All the times I made you cry. 

So young and terribly immature
I ran around in circles
Could never seem to get it right
I was incredibly unstable.

You never wavered, always sure
Knew just what you were doing
I was off my mark …. more times than not
It was my fault things were ruined.

Treated me better than I deserved
Showered me with love and affection
No way that I deserved it all
Since all you got was rejection.

There was no one, no one like you
I was  foolish, I was crazed
 Always looking for another
Just another pretty face.

Those nights we spent together 
Felt your heartbeat next to mine
Knew you truly loved me
Still I did it, I crossed the line.

Regret a harsh, cold lesson
I got what was coming to me
You walked out , never looking back 
It was over ….. you were done, finally.

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