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I should have known
I shouldn’t be here
It was my choice
Or so it appears.

The look on her face
So intense, so extreme
I started to panic
This wasn’t a dream.

The constant barrage
The judgement , the blame
I made a mistake 
So sorry I came. 

I wanted to run
I wanted to hide
My heart was pounding
I started to cry.

She never let up 
I had no  defense
Nothing about this 
Made any  sense.

No way to reason
With distortion and lies
In over my head
With no alibi. 

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Thinking  about you
Wondering why
You’re content with so little
Enough to get by.

Money for rent
Money for weed
You do what you can
To get what you need.

You smoke and you drink
While you play your guitar
Not looking for gigs
Satisfied where you are. 

Should go to LA
Connect with the scene
Make some new friends
Follow your dreams. 

You need motivation
You could make it, you could
You’ve got talent and looks
You’re way better than good. 

I sit and admire 
The way that you play
But,  you need to be driven
To make it today.

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Memories of childhood
Sleigh riding down the hill
Coming home with rosy cheeks
Snow on the window sill.

Boots and coats , mittens too
A scarf to keep us warm
We’d  sit beside the window
Awaiting a snowstorm. 

The leaves glistening in the moonlight
Inside a cozy fire
My mother in the kitchen
After sledding we were tired.

A pot of soup on the stove
The smell of homemade bread
We’d  gather round the table
Have some soup, then off to bed. 

Awaiting Santa’s visit
All the presents and the toys
Filled our house with laughter
So much happiness and joy.

My father home from work late
Would come  up to say, “Good Night”
Tells us that he loved us
Then he’d turn off all the lights.

Good to look back, remembering 
The way it used to be
To reminisce …. to smile again
To cherish memories. 

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A siren in the distance
Overhead a bright blue sky
An impatient driver blows his horn
A child begins to cry.

Her mother tries to comfort her
A dog begins to bark
I pass a couple holding hands
I’m heading to the park.

The leaves are falling to the ground
I sit on a bench alone
Watching people passing by
Feel chilled right to the bone.

Should have worn my jacket
My sweatshirt’s not enough
Good thing I wore my winter cap
And a pair of leather gloves.

Could get a cup of coffee
There’s a cafe across the street
I think I’ll walk on over
That’s exactly what I need.

Morning in the city
The day has just begun
I ordered a cappuccino 
And a fresh baked sticky bun.

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Always sentimental
She saved every ticket stub
Every bow and ribbon
Tiny spoon and baby cup.

Framed every school age picture
As I was growing up
Showered me with accolades
Encouragement and love.

Listened while I practiced
Every morning for the band
I tried to play the trumpet
She was my biggest fan.

Came to every home game
Always cheered me on
I never had an inkling 
That anything was wrong.

I ran track my senior year 
Developed my first crush
I told her that I met a girl
And liked her very much.

We went to our senior prom
And college locally
After graduation
I asked her to marry me. 

We had two small children
Before mom had passed away 
They loved their Granny so much
They were the highlight of her day.

Now I post my children’s photos
And have a box of souvenirs
I go to all their plays and games
Like  mom did all those years.

Never thought I was sentimental 
But, I  guess you would agree
I’m trying to do  for  my kids
All the things mom did for me. 

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Spirits soar
Flying high
Pick me up
To touch the sky.

Every thought
I have of you
Inspiring me
To follow through. 

Above the sun
Beside the moon
I listen for 
The stars to croon. 

The words , the tone
The melody
They sing their songs
Their songs for me.

Just relax 
And float on high
The only way
To touch the sky.

I hear their voices
Harmonize
So beautiful 
They make me cry. 

A joyful cry
Of gratitude
So lucky
To be here with you. 

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Friends for years
Seems like forever 
Was always fun
When we’re together. 

But laughter now
At my expense
Has lost its charm
Now makes me cringe.

Insecure
You have the need
To make me hurt
To watch me bleed.

I try too hard
You know I care
But you aren’t nice
And seldom fair. 

You start to laugh
When I speak
Cut me off
Embarrass me.

Kindness means
Nothing  to you
You ridicule 
The things I do. 

Always there
I do for you
At your command 
My servitude. 

But, ushered out 
When guests arrive
Not on the list 
I don’t know why. 

No PhD
Or Professorship
To brag about
Or to flirt with.

But things have changed
I see through you
Don’t like the things 
I see you do. 

Years have passed
And still I see
You have no true
Respect for me.

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I stood there ….. lost
Was devastated
All we had….. evaporated
I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t move
There was no air …. left in the room.

Broken dreams
My world was shattered.
Nothing from this point …. would matter
Every thought and every feeling
In pieces falling from the ceiling.

Every touch
And every word
The lines criss crossed, your image blurred
Everything we shared together
Would be lost, gone … lost forever.

I closed my eyes , I wanted to
Covered my ears, I blocked them , too
I wanted to go back in time
I wanted you to still be mine

Tell her, you were just mistaken
Tell her you’re already taken
I’m begging you, please turn back
Don’t start that fire Don’t strike that match.

Cause….

I couldn’t breathe, no not without you 
I couldn’t live ,  no never without you. 

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I don’t want to hurt your feelings
But, I need to be alone
I can’t keep pretending
I feel better when you’re gone.

What we have’s not working
We are simply worlds apart
Don’t want to keep on trying
I don’t want to break your heart.

So little commonality 
Content to watch TV
No interest in the opera 
Or what matters most to me.

You’re a kind and gentle person
Need to find someone who cares
Me hanging on is just not right
It simply isn’t fair. 

We’ve become a habit
Every Saturday we meet
Go out and see a movie
Or sit home and watch TV. 

I read, I’m educated
Nothing you say interests me
I get bored when you talk to me
I begin to fall asleep.

Don’t want to be judgmental
I guess I am just a snob
But, I am feeling stagnant
And embarrassed by your job.

You make a decent living
Told me you sell used cars
Never went to college
Haven’t gotten very far.

My friends ask me about you
I don’t want to tell the truth
I’m embarrassed, I admit it
This is so unfair to you.

Before going any further
Let’s resign to just be friends
Let’s stop fooling one another 
We both know this has to end. 

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It’s time to reboot
Take it from the top
Start all over
Ready or not.

The only way out
Start over again
Try a new stance
Make some new friends.

Don’t give in
It’s not that tough
You gotta try
You can’t give up.

So plan your day
Don’t lay around
Get up, get busy
Walk to town.

Listening to
Your favorite songs
Will lift your spirits
Sing along.

Feeling sorry
For yourself
Is not the answer
It won’t help.

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