SO SAD

I didn’t want to leave you
It hurts more than you know
Don’t want to live without you
But, afraid I have to go.

So much pain and sorrow
I can’t explain the reasons why
My heart is broken, torn apart
It hurts to say goodbye.

I can’t take you with me
I knew it from the start
You couldn’t make the journey
It was going to be too hard.

Your world is in the outdoors 
Your home beneath the brush
You’d come when it was dinner time
That’s the way, the way it was. 

Can’t bear the thought of losing you
I know that you’re sad, too
Never thought I’d have to walk away
And abandon both of you. 

You and your mom have been together 
It’s been  almost seven years
At least, I know you’re not alone 
That much I know is clear.

The guilt is overwhelming
I’m feeling  hurt, and so ashamed
It’s not anything you ever did
I’m totally to blame.

Though I knew you both were feral
Somewhere deep  within my heart 
I wanted to be close to  you
But, now we have to part.

There is a feral colony
I know that it’s nearby
I feel so bad about this
I can’t help but cry.

Wish I could take you with me
Wish I could find a way
Hoping that you’ll be all right
Asking God to keep you safe.