MY SUDDEN DEMISE

Can’t shake this feeling I have for you
Can’t shake this pain that I feel
Can’t bear this nagging feeling inside
Can’t believe what we had wasn’t real.

Believed the lies and the promises
When you said that you truly did care
Standing on the ledge … so close to you
Had no reason to be frightened or scared. 

With your hands gently resting on my shoulders 
Like they were so many times before
Were you contemplating my sudden demise
Hesitating or feeling unsure?

I fell ten floors down…  to the pavement
The wind blowing, arms flailing in the air
In shock, no alarm…  without warning
No time to be nervous or scared.

Don’t worry… your secret’s safe with me
Nobody knows just what you did
Maybe it was a mere accident
Told the police that you thought … that I tripped.

I was falling, unable to help myself
The inertia of gravity pulling me down
Strong wind forcing air into my throat
Left me unable to utter a sound.

The investigation revealed faulty rebar
A structural defect or decline
I was leaning against the outer shell 
Guess the fault wasn’t yours, it was mine. 

Repairs promptly ensued, without charges
No further suspicion or blame
You decided to sell your apartment 
The Insurance made good on your claim.

“A Celebration of Life” was forthcoming
My family and friends said, “Goodbye”
I watched from above, up in heaven
Looking down, from a cerulean sky. 

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