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Looking out the window
Leaves no longer on the trees
It’s gloomy, gray and awfully cold
Wish you were here with me.

The holidays will soon arrive
Sent out my Christmas cards
So many friends have passed on
It makes it so darn hard.

Christmas carols, Christmas trees
The smell of evergreen
Presents wrapped under the tree
On the mantel, a nativity scene.

The magic and the make believe
Reserved only for children
But, still  enjoy wrapping our gifts 
With fancy bows and ribbons. 

Remembering all the days gone by
The good times and the bad
Those special times make life worthwhile 
But, sometimes makes us sad.

Christmas is a holiday
A day to beam and shine
Try our best to shake the blues
Be happy and be kind.

A steamy, warm, hot chocolate
Some Christmas cookies, too
Sitting  by the fire
Helps to soothe those Christmas blues. 

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No, it’s not a good idea
Keep walking, don’t look back
So many years …. we’ve been apart
Don’t respond, please don’t react.

A coincidental meeting
Not meant to be today
Please don’t bother, don’t comply
There’s nothing left to say.

Don’t need a hug , don’t say “hello”
Too strange, it would feel weird 
I pretend you don’t exist
Don’t dare come over here. 

Don’t need to know …. you’re doing well
That you’re happy with her, too
Wish I had …. stayed home today
And, not run into you. 

But, here we are …. together again
Standing face to face
My heart racing, hands are shaking 
As we share a warm embrace.

Obsessions …. hard to let them go
True passion steals the show 
Before long you said, “goodbye”
Like you did so long ago.

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Selfish indifference
Can lead to cruelty
Complacency, avoidance
Denial and hostility.

Fixated on your grocery bill
Ignorant and bold
Blindly following angry men
Doing as you’re told. 

Their plan …. to build an empire
Gather as much money as they can
Their focus is on billionaires
You’ll never understand.

Dismantling the government
Threatening Democracy
Assigning the unqualified
With no regard for capability.

Lining all their pockets
Focused on one race
Anxious to eliminate
Medicare to them…. a waste.

Children scared, terrified
Mothers sent away
Babies taken from their arms
All we can do is pray.

Threats to impose unwanted tariffs 
With no concern for the little guy
No one’s going to have a say
You won’t get to question why.

Once the ball starts rolling
You’ll feel sorry for yourself
Maybe admit to your mistake
But, complaining will not help. 

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Gotta stop looking back
Stop thinking about the past
Too much pain and heartache
Don’t let the torment last.

You made it through the gauntlet 
Yes, you did… you persevered 
Unable to destroy you
You made it, you are here.

They were evil , yes…. demonic
What they did was simply wrong
You hung on, you found your way
Held your ground , showed them you’re strong.

Toxic , cruel , unyielding
Always said it was your fault
But, you know they’re  dishonest
Just listen to them talk. 

Slinging mud, their specialty 
Attempts to change the narrative
Anything to put you down
Anything to destroy your character.

But slow and steady wins the race
Keep going , you’re doing fine
Don’t let their anger bother you
Remain compassionate and kind.

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My heart was beating  faster
My hands shaking a bit
Yes, I’m feeling anxious
Have to try and get thru this.

“Pull yourself together”
That’s what I told myself
If I can’t get my head on straight
I’m going to need some help.

Please hurry,  find a Doctor
A PA, perhaps a Nurse
Take  me to the ER
I’m starting to feel worse.

Hurry up, call 911
Where are the paramedics?
Let them bring the stretcher in
I have a splitting headache.

After twenty minutes
The triage nurse appeared
Told me she would fix me up
Said, “Come with me , My Dear”.

Into a gown, onto a bed
She started an IV
Said I was dehydrated
That’s all it was, you see.

Sent me home, gave me a list
Of things I need to do
Said to see my doctor
That I was …. as good as new.

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Just the way you said it
I thought you really meant it
What were you really thinking?
Feels like this boat is sinking.

Know you will deny it
You’re so damn defiant
Know you’ll lie about it
You told me to just keep quiet.

Shout it from the rooftops 
Tell it to the world 
But, you say that it’s a secret
I can’t share it with the girls.

I won’t break my promise 
I believe in loyalty
You know that you can trust me
Your secret’s safe with me.

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They say you need to , “Level up 
You need ambition, need a goal 
Don’t wanna have regrets and shame
When you’re tired and very old.”

Does it really matter, though?
All the hand held certificates
The classes and the papers
How beneficial or significant?

In fifty years …. I’ll be dead and gone
No one will know my name
Does that really matter now?
In the end …. it’s all the same.

Tried to make a good impression
Really wanted to fit in
Every rung upon the ladder
Followed through right to the end.

All my loved one’s …. turned to dust
I got left here on my own
The last lone survivor 
Sitting here, so all alone.

Another trip around the sun
It could clearly be my last
Don’t want to waste my time
Always living in the past.

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Tell me what you’re  thinking?
Can’t you see …. you’re settling?
Come on, honey …. look around 
It’s so darn embarrassing.

Take your time, take it slow
Don’t think she’s right for you
The contrast is so obvious
She’s a taker through and through.

She’s awfully sure, sure of herself
Are you that desperate?
Is she the one ? I don’t think so
Hate to belabor it. 

But, you’re the one I care about
So pay attention, be alert
She’s someone you met “on line”
Keep this up and you’ll get hurt.

Take your time… what’s the rush?
She’s moving way too fast
Need to find your one true love
A love you know will last. 

You’ve gotta get to know her 
Gotta take your time
She seems so awfully pushy
Wants you to tow the line. 

She reserved the U Haul van
Cleaned out a dresser drawer
She’s making plans to tie the knot
That’s what she’s aiming for.

She’s not the only game in town
I know you want romance
But please, please reconsider
Give somebody else a chance.

Regret, a pill to swallow
When you realize what you’ve done
Before things get too serious
Put on your shoes and run!

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My mistake …. I messed up
Should have never crossed the line
Would change it…. if I had the chance
But, can’t go back in time. 

Tried to say, “I’m sorry”
Did my best to apologize 
It was never my intention
To ever make you cry.

You were always harsh …. unyielding
Acted like you could care less
But, I honestly I loved you
Can’t we give this all a rest.

Pushed and pulled, turned away
Never knew just what to do
I wasn’t what you wanted
I was not enough for you.

Always kept your distance
At arm’s length, kept me at bay
I longed to be accepted
But, was always turned away. 

Anyone that knew us
Knew I wanted so much more
Much more than I could ever say 
But, I was shown the door. 

Now you’re older and you’re bitter
No one left for you to blame
Turned your back, turned me away
Left me here…. to bear the shame. 

You said you didn’t love me
Were you telling me the truth?
I was hurt, was devastated
There was nothing I could do. 

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I did my best, was not enough
I tried so hard, but you gave up
Little left  to be said
Cut myself….I bled and bled.

No magic potion,  no recipe
No formula, to make you see
The feeling’s gone, can’t get it back 
Something’s wrong, we got off track.

Salty tears, broken heart
Shattered dreams, now we’re apart
Don’t wake me up, I’m in the  dark
Can’t start a fire without a spark. 

I let you go, the feelings gone
Don’t know just when, it all went wrong
You needed more, you always did
I tried my best, I did commit. 

Some days were good, some days were rough
When it was good, it was enough
I wanted more, you wanted less
Got tired of being second best.

A taste of heaven, a glimpse at hell
You truly were a hard, tough sell
Made up your mind , laid out your cards
Breaking up…. was fucking hard. 

A stepping stone, along the way
Should’a known you’d never stay
Hard to know when it would end
No longer lovers, no longer friends. 

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