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You pushed so hard
But, waited too long
So sure you were needed
But, you were so wrong.

The coffee …. the jitters
The pain in your gut
Though you looked quite tattered
You always showed up.

The contrast so clear
She was young and alert
So polished, she shined
She stood out at work.

Without hesitation
Quite comfortably
They made a decision
Unanimously.

New kid on the block
You were demoted
They all agreed
They decided…they voted.

No choice in the matter
Time to retire
She was loaded for bear
Best to quit….don’t get fired.

She had an agenda
She knew what to do
To get what she wanted
To get rid of you.

Every day 
Begins the same
How’d it happen?
Who’s to blame?

Needing to
Go back to work
Make my lunch
Iron my shirt.

But “Groundhog Day”
Starts again
It’s all the same
As it begins.

Need the money
Need to feel
We can survive
This vile ordeal.

Everything’s
Been turned around
Can’t figure out
What’s up or  down.

Bills are high
Funds are low
Can’t leave the house
Nowhere to go.

Can’t get close
Six feet apart
This distancing
Just breaks my heart.

Wish that this
Was just a  dream
Still waiting for
A safe vaccine.

So upset
What can we do?
I’m so afraid
Of losing you.

Let’s wear our masks
Wash our hands
Let’s do our best
Do what we can.

_______________________

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Walking to the beach
Fierce waves rolling in
Dark clouds above 
A howling …. savage wind.

Sand …. like bits of glass
Swirling in the air
Sting my face and eyes
Blowing swiftly through my hair.

The distant buoy rocks
Seems to flail about
The fog horn in the distance
Can still be heard …. it’s loud. 

An eerie winter night
The moon behind the clouds
The light comes and goes
Shining through …. though in and out.

A scarf across my face
My hands within my pockets 
The chill is in the air
I had buttoned up my jacket.

No one is on the beach
A lone bird …. struggles up above
Late to look for cover
Looks like a small, white dove

I call out your name
I look up and down the beach
There’s no sign of you
I begin to cry …. to weep.

Hope you changed your mind
Hope you went back  home
Not a night to wander
To wander out alone. 

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I waited three or four days 
But didn’t hear from you
I took the hint, I backed off
But in a day or two.

I called you on your cell phone
Sent an email and a text
Thought you would respond
 to me
Heard you had moved out west.

I learned from an old friend
That you had passed away
No details…… just tragic news
“She’s gone”,  I  heard him say.

I dropped my phone
Dropped to my knees
Sat on the kitchen floor
I cried and cried all night long
The pain worse than before.

Before the night you told me
You needed to be free
You met someone more interesting
More interesting than me.

Thought ….. we’d get back  together
One day you’d change your mind
But guess I was just dreaming
Hoping one day you’d be mine.

They say that where there’s breath, there’s hope
But time to face the truth 
I’ll never get to see you now
Or get to talk to you. 

Foolishly I hoped that 
You’d come back to me
But years had passed, then decades
All that’s left ….. are memories. 

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Watch the scale
Watch your weight
Get started now
It’s not too late.

Read the labels
Check the charts
Don’t give up
Before you start.

Counting grams
No sugar treats
Cutting back
On calories.

No rice or pasta
Potatoes or bread
No snacking at night
Before going to bed.

Drink lots of water
Avoid caffeine
Enjoy a salad
Eat lots of greens.

Consistency
Your best friend
Being skinny
The new trend.

Like the tortoise 
And the hare
At times the race
Does not seem fair.

Some can eat
Ice Cream and cake
They still lose weight
For heaven’s sake.

Looking at 
A piece of fudge
Can guarantee
That scale won’t budge.

It takes time
To lose that weight
But, you’ll look better
You’ll feel great.

Stay away from
Pies and chips
You can do it
You got this.

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I believed
That you did
You really did
You did love  me.

Unexpected
Unprepared
No  idea
You didn’t care.

Plans to leave
Set in motion
No response
No emotion.

By myself
Now abandoned 
Set adrift
Feeling stranded.

Hopelessly
Looking on
You walked out
Now you’re gone.

Years of wonder 
Left in shock
Aimlessly
I watched the clock.

Days to weeks
Months to years
Left with sorrow
Left in tears.

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Talk to me
Tell me the truth
I’m trying hard…to get over you.

Forget the spin
Forget the lying
I can’t stop …. myself from crying. 

Stop touching me
Don’t say those words
Don’t leave it open ….   don’t infer.

You don’t love me
Why did you lie
Knowing you would ….. say goodbye?

You go to her
Lie in her bed
What have you told her? …. What have you said?

No empathy
Bold face lies
No problem looking …. into my eyes.

Believing you
The trust …. the shame
Knowing it …. was all a game.

How could you
Let me ….. bear my soul
How could you be…. so cruel, so cold?

So intimate
I let you in 
What you’ve done…. a crime , a sin.

Callous, harsh
No feelings of love
You took what you wanted…. till you had enough.

The charm and the smile
I fell  hard for you 
I did what you wanted …. what you told me to.

Embarrassed, ashamed 
Complete devastation
Drawn into your web of greed and deception.

_______________________

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I had to face the bitter truth
That I was not enough
It was always you and her
It’s never been just us. 

Too much time has come and gone
No idea what happened
I simply fell out of grace
So easily forgotten.

Tried to find the words to say
Tried to make it right 
But you were having none of it
You left me …. that same night.

You took your stuff….
You packed a bag
I heard you close the door
I heard you walking hurriedly
Across the wooden  floor. 

Seriously….
Just passing time 
While waiting for something better?
I was just a place holder
Till the day you met her.

What was I
Just random sex? 
Something fun to do?
I never thought you were so cruel
I blindly fell for you.

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(A Song)

She’ll walk away
She won’t be back
No second thoughts
No time for that.

She’ll write you off
Done this before
She’ll take your pride
Then close and lock the door.

She’ll shut you out
No strings attached
Think she’s in love
Don’t count on that.

The trap’s been set
Watch for the wire
Don’t trip and fall
She’ll set your heart on fire.

BREAK….

Don’t take a chance
She doesn’t care
You’ll fall apart 
She won’t be there.

She’ll do it again
Till she’s had enough
She likes to play games
She likes it rough.

There’s someone new
You’ve been replaced
Another fool
A change of pace.

She won’t need you
Anymore
She’ll turn and smile
Then ….walk right out the door.

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Why the hell are you calling me?
We’ve been down this road before
You don’t really want me
So why are you knocking on my door?

Said you’re feeling so lonely
But you said that we’re through
Now you want to come over 
So what am I supposed to do?

What the hell do you want from me?
Tell me what you’re looking for
You know you don’t really want me
So why are you knocking on my door?

I don’t need no booty call
If that’s what you’re looking for
Head back home to your lady, baby 
Don’t start knocking on my door.

Can’t you see what you’re doing, to me?
None of this is fair
We both know you’re just cruising
That you really just don’t care.

What is it you’re looking for?
You said that we’re through
Don’t keep on knocking, baby
Let me get over you.

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