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What am I suppose to do
When you say you’re leaving?
What can I possibly say
To make you start believing?

Said we’d always be together 
Thought you were being honest
Believed you when you told me
You said forever, you  did…you promised.

Don’t let her come between us
You know that you are mine
She’ll never stay, she never does
She leaves you every time.

You’re just confused, I can tell
Let’s figure out a way
We’ll work it out….we always do
I need you….please, please stay.

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I said that I’m sorry
But words on deaf ears
Really don’t matter
After all of these years.

I hurt you …. I know it
How can I explain?
The heartache …. the sorrow
I know …. I’m to blame.

To say that I loved you
Sounds like a lie
Cause if I did
Why say goodbye?

Careless and selfish
So damn immature
You were so steadfast
Always so sure.

But I was a player
I was a fool
I should have tried harder
Should’a stayed there with you.

I’m paying the price
Everyday ….. all the time
I live with regret
You’ll never be mine.

You severed the ties
I deserved it …. I know
It’s my fault for leaving
For letting you go.

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Plagued, consumed, bombarded
Can’t seem to find a way
Your memory lives on and on
Though you are light years from today. 

You never take the time
No thoughts of what we had
You don’t spend a millisecond
Ever feeling bad. 

One of the beautiful people
The world is at your feet
Always get what you want
Or take from those you meet.

Lust… the primal secret
A pathway into one’s soul
Someone pays a hefty price
When one’s heart is bought or sold.

Like it never happened 
Thoughts easily erased
On to bigger and better things
Another pretty face.

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You string me along
Like Mardi Gras beads
Tossed in the air 
Blown in the breeze.

No regard or respect
No love or concern
Everyday is the same 
The crash and the burn.

No one to blame
I relinquished control
Played into your hands
I gave you my soul.

The nights in your bed
The shame that I felt
You made me beg
At your feet … while I knelt.

No sense of self worth
No pity on me
Why wouldn’t I want
Or demand to be free?

A date with the devil
I should have known
You were so callous 
Cold to the bone.

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I waited all night
For you to come home
I sat in the bedroom
I waited alone.

I watched the time pass
Thinking of you
Imagining you with her
What else could I do?

I’d try to say something
Say something new
Something to shake you 
To get through to you. 

But when you walked in
It was the same as before
I heard your footsteps
Heard you close the door.

Told me you worked late
But that was a lie
I didn’t believe you
I started to cry.

I could smell her perfume
Your hair looked a mess
Must have left in a hurry
Didn’t take time to dress.

Your tie in your pocket
Your shirt wrinkled but clean
I could only imagine
With what little I’d seen.

Said you were sorry
But you’d fallen for her
After hearing those words
It was all just a blurr!

I dropped to my knees
My world torn apart
I meant nothing to you
You shattered my heart.

I can’t be there 
When you pack up your stuff
It’s too hard to accept 
That I wasn’t enough.

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Carved out of stone
Heart ….cold as ice
Overcome with elation
No time to think twice.

A once in a lifetime
The thrill of it all
Brought to the edge
Just waiting to fall.

Head over heels
Consumed, mesmerized 
Fully engaged 
All at once paralyzed.

Dazzled, delighted 
Beyond my control
Surrendered my spirit
My body, my soul.

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She pulled into the driveway
In her old blue pick up truck
Wondered what was happening
Out of gas or out of luck.

Just got a brand new battery
A new muffler …. new tail lights
No matter what she tried to do
Things never turned out right.

Her daddy died two years ago
Her mom ten years before
All she had was that old pickup truck
Painted blue with one green door.

The farmhouse where she lived herself
Was five miles down the road
She managed her family’s dairy farm
How she did it … no one knows.

No husband, friend or partner
She did it on her own
She worked all day … from dawn till dark
Lived by herself ….. alone.

A pretty girl, with long blonde hair
Her eyes an emerald green
Always wore a flannel shirt
Her boots and dirty jeans.

She wasn’t here for very long
Was heading into town
Wondered if I’d seen the vet
Or… if he’d been around.

Doc Bradley spent a lot of time
Down at the dairy farm
He recently fell off his horse
Heard he had broke his arm.

Said she baked an apple pie
In case he did stop by
So obvious to most of us
That he had caught her eye.

They seemed to be compatible
He was handsome and quite strong
She needed someone there with her
Now that her dad was gone.

Five years passed since they were wed
Have three kids, and a dog
Heard they got six goats last week
A donkey and a hog.

She still drives that old blue truck
Back and forth and into town
It takes her where she wants to go
Uses it …. to get around.

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Now that it’s finally over
Now that you have moved on
I have to get used to this feeling
I have to face it …. you’re gone.

Can’t find the strength to keep going
Lying here….alone  on the floor
Hard to find a good reason
A reason to try anymore.

All of those nights at your mercy
Believing the things that you said
Wanting to be what you wanted 
Wanting to be in your bed.

Stripped down… exposed, unprotected
I gave everything I had … to you
Hearing you never really loved me
Hard to accept …. hard facing the truth.

Out of my mind, barely conscious
Is this all …. just a dream?
Is that you …. standing there in the distance?
Is anything at all….. what it seems?

Come back….I left the door open
It’s closed, but it isn’t locked
Don’t leave me here bludgeoned and battered
I’m bleeding out…. sadly in shock.

My heart now shattered…. in pieces
Scattered about…. everywhere
I’m feeling so broken …. now crippled
Unable to move … I don’t dare.

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I saw her in the distance 
She stumbled, then she fell
Once I got up to her
I could see she wasn’t well.

She had walked the beach for hours
In the dark, there in the sand
I could tell she was exhausted
She looked weathered …. she was tan.

I offered her some water
She drank a little bit
Hard for her to swallow
She took but, a few small sips.

I held her in the moonlight
There beneath the moon and cstars
On the shoreline …. she and I
There rested in the dark.

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Never seeing you again
So hard to understand
Reaching out, but you’re not there
Not there to hold my hand.

The last words you said to me
Still ringing  in my ears
All that’s left ….since all that time
The days turned into years.

The plans, the hopes, the dreams…they’re gone
Crumbled before my eyes
I’ll never know …. what went wrong
I’ll always wonder why.

The permanence,  the finality
Acceptance , the remedy 
The truth so very painful
And …. oh so difficult  for me.

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