lovenlosses

Six months after all
Shouldn’t I feel better?
They say time will heal
But, they don’t know … how much I loved her.

Too soon she left my side
I can’t find my way alone
This house is just too quiet
And, she’s not ever coming home.

Coffee on the patio
Not fun without her there
None of this feels right
It simply isn’t fair.

The hours slowly pass
Too long, can’t find a way
To fill the emptiness
To make it through the day.

The garden in the yard
Now overgrown with weeds
Her loving, tender touch
Something we both seem to need.

I finish a new book
Want to share the quirky ending
Only she would understand
What she’d predict, at the beginning.

Clever and oh so charming
Beautiful, sublime
Can’t imagine I’ll feel better
They say I will, it just takes time.

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A perfect day
Not a cloud in the sky
The wind gently blowing
The boats passing by.

I sit here alone
Warmed by the sun
Watching the children
Having such fun.

Sand pails and buckets
The laughter, the noise
They sit building castles
They play with their toys.

Where did the time go?
My children all grown
They live far away
They live on their own.

I relish the time
I have on this earth
I ponder my essence
I question my worth.

I’ve seen many things
I’ve marveled and gleaned
Have been given so much
Fulfilled many dreams.

Feels good just to be
Quiet and free
Idle , unencumbered
Alive spiritually.

I look to the water
To the waves rolling in
Rekindling hope
Again and again.

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We are getting older
Our hair has turned to grey
We walk a little slower
We age from day to day.

Our nails are somewhat brittle
Our eyesight, not so good
I ask you to repeat things
I don’t recall some things I should.

We bruise a little easier
Our balance is unsteady
It takes us longer to get dressed
A little longer…. to get ready.

Where did all the time go?
The years have passed us by
It’s been quite a journey
I never want to say, “goodbye”.

So many different ailments
Trips to and from the doctor
Hard to believe we made it
To the “Happy Ever After”.

We still hold hands and kiss good night
You mean the world to me
It’s been a good life all in all
I’m sure you would agree.

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Your eyes sparkle like diamonds
Your voice is mesmerizing
I spend half of my day
Alone with my thoughts
Admittedly, fantasizing …. about you
The girl in the coffee shop.

I watch you everyday
You walk in, always carrying a book
You sit by yourself
I can’t help myself
I stare and I look ….at you
The girl in the coffee shop.

My friends tell me…. “Talk to her”,
But I’m too shy, too intimidated
Afraid you might know
Afraid you could tell
That I’m totally infatuated … with you
The girl in the coffee shop.

I watch you sip your coffee
Read your book….page by page
Wishing that I….
Could talk to you
But I wouldn’t know what to say… to
The girl in the coffee shop.

One day, you turned and smiled at me
I offered to buy you coffee
Hoping this might
Just break the ice
And, you’d want to get to know me
The girl in the coffee shop.

We sat and talked for hours
Realized it was getting late
I walked you home
You held my hand
You were wonderful, you were great
The girl in the coffee shop.

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Re-blog. April 22, 2018

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Peanut butter sandwiches
“Kool Aid” and chocolate bars
Trips down to the candy store
On our bikes, it’s not that far.

Cookies, pops and peanuts
Ice cream sodas, malts and shakes
They served fountain sodas, then
Their banana splits were great!

I was only nine years old
Road my bike all over town
Attached baseball cards to my spokes
With some clothespins that I found.

Summers were the very best
No homework, books or school
I left the house at 8 a.m.
Spent most days at the pool.

No fancy clothes or special shoes
Wore my sneakers everyday
A t-shirt and a pair of shorts
All you need to go out to play.

Rainy days were spent inside
Our clubhouse in the trees
We played “Jacks” and “Marbles”
“Go Fish” or “Monopoly”.

What I wouldn’t give
To go back in time awhile
Just thinking about those days gone by
Is enough to make me smile.

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Frantic, holding onto
A branch about to break
Someone please reach out to me
Help me, for goodness sake.

I’m drowning in this river
Overcome by sweat and tears
I feel lost, hurt and abandoned
Please don’t leave me, standing here.

Stay with me, I’m frightened
I don’t want to be alone
Please sit with me for just awhile
Before you head back home.

So well insulated
Till he walked through my door
He brought me down to my knees
Left me weak and wanting more.

Without warning he walked out
No note or explanation
Just an empty dresser drawer
No second thoughts, no hesitation.

Left his keys there on the table
Left me with a broken heart
My life is now in shambles
My world’s been torn apart.

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The highlight of my day
A trip to the candy store
Red licorice, malt balls
Three jaw breakers, or four.

A candy beaded necklace
Soft taffy and jujubes
A small brown bag filled to the top
With everything I’d need.

Wooden slats, a ladder to
Our clubhouse in the trees
Made from boards from the lumber yard
Paid for by raking leaves.

We’d climb straight up, crawl inside
Pass thru a makeshift door
We’d play games, trade baseball cards
Till it was half past four.

By five o’clock, it got dark
The street lights would come on
We’d climb down, get on our bikes
It was time to head on home.

A simpler time of innocence
Who knew it would all change
My kids sit with their laptops, now
All they play are video games.

No “1, 2, 3….Red light”
No outside “Hide n Seek”
No forts, skate keys or treehouses
A computer is all they need.

No backyard shows, no sandboxes
“Trick or Treating’s” obsolete
The candy’s given out at parties, now
Not by neighbors down the street.

There are shooting drills in classrooms
Children have to be prepared
Everything has changed so much
There are reasons to be scared.

A simpler time of innocence
When we were very young
Seems we had it better then
Seems life was much more fun.

So much pressure to achieve
To climb up to the top
Everyone pushing and clamoring, now
Wish we could make it stop.

Turn back the clocks, go back in time
When our days were sweet and innocent
A gentler time, filled with laughter and joy
When things were oh so different.

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“So sorry for your loss”
Those words ring in my ears
Nothing can be said
To ever stop the tears.

No one will ever know
The pain you felt inside
The emptiness, the sadness
The need to say, “goodbye”.

Your family looks for answers
Trying hard to understand
Was there something they could do
To thwart your final plan?

The heartache and deep sadness
The relentless hurt and shame
The burden of the pain you felt
The underlying blame.

There was no explanation
From the outside looking in
You seemed to have it all
Why did it have to end?

The missing puzzle pieces
The answers we’ll never know
Will plague me in the dark of night
Why did you have to go?

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Brush it off
Don’t let it stick
Don’t consider
Consider it.

Crude remarks
Sad, not true
Only will
Upset you.

Some folks unkind
Despite a smile
Loaded with
Such hate and guile.

Let it roll
Roll off your back
Don’t respond
When they attack.

Harsh and cold
Consumed with greed
Not worth your time
Not what you need.

Walk away
With head held high
Don’t succumb
Don’t sit and cry.

Know the source
Don’t validate
Give them cause
To congregate.

Birds of a feather
Often found
In groups and crowds
Will pull you down.

Not to worry
Just walk away
Don’t listen to
The things they say.

Just… brush it off
Don’t let it stick
Don’t make so much
So much of it.

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Feelings of depression
Consume my empty soul
No one knows the sense of loss
My life… a dark, black hole.

A painted face of smiles and grins
I force upon myself
Inside I’m crying, feeling lost
No one is there to help.

Though showered with affection
I can’t seem to fill the void
The voices that dare speak to me
Cannot drown out the noise.

Day to day, I wander aimlessly
So empty, feeling lost
Incapable of coping
Life comes at such a cost.

I struggle, so uncertain
My demons won’t let go
The doubt and shame that lingers
No one will ever know.

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