Author: Patty Richardson

Thoughts of you  keep slipping through
Can’t get you off my mind
If only I had realized
Could have seen the warnings signs.

If only I could let you go
Let go of memories
I keep the photos in a drawer
The ones of you with me.

You’re not the one, the one I need
I finally see the truth
After all this time I know
I shouldn’t be with you.

But, I can’t stop the memories
Those feelings of regret
Can’t stop myself from feeling
I need to just forget.

It’s time to close and lock the door
Don’t want to think of you
You took my love …. you took my soul
You broke my heart in two.

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We were young and foolish
Believed in love and fantasies
With demands and expectations
We fell in lust…. so easily.

The chemistry between us
That first kiss .. the thrill of desire
Your touch …the need … the craving
Was enough to start a fire.

The roar …. the heat…. the thunder
Hotter than the burning sun
If I had …. just an inkling
I may have seen the smoking gun.

Blinded by …. the lure of passion
One massive, twisted crush
Overwhelmed with sweet temptation
That would be the death of us.

The surge that once propelled us
Lost momentum over time
You can’t sustain the wild instincts
That consume your heart and mind.

The flames once raging have died down
All that remains are dust and ash
The smoldering ambers have lost their glow
That feeling couldn’t last.

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DON’T COME ANY CLOSER
I’M STANDING ON THE LEDGE
DON’T NEED TO HEAR YOU TELL ME
THAT I’M TOO CLOSE TO THE EDGE.

I WANT TO TRY…TRY TO BELIEVE
BUT WE BOTH KNOW YOU LIE
PLEASE DON’T SAY ANOTHER WORD
DON’T WANT TO START TO CRY.

DON’T COME ANY CLOSER
STEP BACK …. PLEASE WALK AWAY
DON’T MAKE IT ANY WORSE FOR ME
THERE’S NOTHING MORE TO SAY.

12 FLIGHTS UP …. 3 SECONDS DOWN
IT WON’T TAKE  ME VERY LONG
I’LL HOLD MY BREATH ….  I’LL SAY A PRAYER
BEFORE I HIT THE GROUND.

ONE STEP CLOSER, ONE STEP MORE
IT WON’T TAKE MUCH TO FORGET
DON’T WANT TO KEEP REMEMBERING
THE THINGS THAT YOU HAD SAID.

NEVER DOUBTED FOR A MOMENT
THAT WE’D ALWAYS BE IN LOVE
HAD NO IDEA THAT THINGS HAD CHANGED
THAT YOU HAD GIVEN UP.

DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT
IT WOULD TAKE US WAY TOO LONG
DON’T WANT TO HAVE TO REMINISCE
ABOUT WHAT WE DID WRONG.

DON’T NEED AN EXPLANATION
NO REASON TO ASK WHY
GUESS IF IT IS MEANT TO BE
I’LL SIMPLY LEARN TO FLY.

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Constant nagging ….. criticizing
Ain’t doing me no good
Telling me what I should do
Your could’a …. should’a …..would’s.

Too much guilt …. too much shame
Self doubt consumes my mind
This constant degradation
It’s your problem ….. it’s not mine.

What about your own mistakes?
Stop making accusations
I chastise myself too much
Don’t need your condemnation.

So tired of feeling down and out
We both know …. life’s too short
So think before you say something
You may need to abort.

Hold your tongue …. just think twice
Will this harm or will it help?
If you think it may cause pain
Best to ….keep it to yourself.

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I didn’t know where this would lead
You wanted so much more from me
You held my  hand .… I held you back
Tried not to cry …. not to react. 

I couldn’t see three feet ahead
We spent way too much…time in bed
I was confused …. too much , too fast
There was no way that this could last.

No match for you …. could  not keep up
In time you’d simply had enough
I lost my luster  .… interest waned
I started feeling so ashamed.

Out of my mind .… so out of step
Left with sorrow and regret
Worlds apart …. we came unglued
Just wanted to be close to you.

Always searching …. wanting more
What was it you were looking for?
Prestige, assurance …. security 
The things you didn’t find in me. 

Nothing was the way it seemed
It felt like I was in a dream
Your words were garbled,  cold and strong
I heard you say this is all wrong.

I let go ….. I didn’t fight it
You weren’t amused, you weren’t excited
You cut the ties ….. dissolved the bond.
I looked for you, but you were gone.

Nothing left but skin and bones
Twice picked through … now left alone
Nothing there to hold onto
It was over…. I lost you.

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How could you break
A solemn vow?
How could you do it?
Tell me how.

How could you turn
Your back on me
Cut me twice
Then, watch me bleed?

My deepest …. darkest
Thoughts and dreams
My heart and soul
What did it mean?

I laid bare
My innocence
Now nothing matters
Or makes sense.

I trusted you
No holds barred
Gave into you
Exposed my scars.

All the while
You had betrayed
The promises
The bond we made.

Nothing sacred
Or revered
All that’s left
Regret and tears.

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Walking on egg shells 
Afraid  all the time
It’s hard  to accept it
You’re no longer mine.

Where ‘s the attraction?
The nights of pure lust?
Now all that you feel
Is distain and disgust.

So tired of your comments
Remarks … and complaints
You’re no Prince Charming
No you aren’t ….no you ain’t.

No way to go back 
No way to rewind
We can’t sort it out
Can’t fix it… this time.

The sense of  remorse
The sadness , the pain
The hurt and regret
Is all that remains.

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The night we met
Love at first sight
I can’t forget
It felt so right.

Up in the clouds
Couldn’t get any higher
Had no idea … I was
Playing with fire.

No reason to doubt
No reason to fear
The thrill and elation
Brought me to tears. 

Passion and lust
Such pure desire
The surge I felt
When  playing with  fire.

All that was left
Were charred remains
Burned though my skin
Each time I came.

The ash …. the tar
The sparks …. the flames
The harsh regret … 
The pain….. the shame. 

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I called your phone
I sent a text
You left right after
We had sex.

What went wrong?
What did I do?
I should have never
Trusted you.

I got played 
I didn’t know
I never dreamed
That you would go.

There was nothing
I could do
It was over
We were through.

We never got
To talk things over
I never got 
A sense of closure.

Gave me up
For someone new
I’m still not over 
Losing you. 

You think you know
Someone so well
Guess some things
Are …..just  hard to tell.

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