Author: Patty Richardson

Afraid to move …. might wake you up
Here cradled in your arms 
I feel your breath upon my neck
Your body feels so warm. 

I’m marred by loss of virtue
Too ashamed to face the truth
Afraid to try and walk away
Afraid of waking you.  

No meaningful attachments
My focus set on you
No friends that I can turn to
Don’t know just what to do.

A pitiful existence
Living out your fantasies
A life that’s lived for someone else
Leaves nothing left for me.

A bag under the front porch steps A ticket for the train. When I get away from you. I won’t be back again.

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Too much for you to face each day
You needed an escape
You should have come and talked to me
Before it was too late.

You’re never coming back to me
You’re never coming home
You left me here all by myself
You left me here alone.

You couldn’t wait …. it hurt too much
You pushed us all away
What did I do to make you want
To end your life this way?

All the pointless questions
So many senseless lies
Too young to go …. to pack it in
Too soon to say …. Goodbye.

No note and no forewarning 
I came home and found you there
No excuse or explanation
Did you think I wouldn’t care?

Cold to the touch .… so harsh so cruel
My baby …. my best friend
You’ve been taken from me now
No chance to start again.

I held your hand …. I kissed your cheek
Then I began  to wail
Was I to blame … was this my fault?
I guess that I had failed.

Called 911 .…. waited with you
It wasn’t very long
They tried their best …. It was too late 
They said that you were gone.

You are truly in your element
Do you have just what you need?
Was it worth the pain and torment
The hurt that you caused me?

Left alone …. along the wayside
Stepped over .… left for dead
Had no desire to be with me
Found someone else instead.

Have to wonder …. are you happy?
Have you found Utopia?
Does she make  you feel empowered 
Is she that spectacular?

Gotta be somewhat extraordinary
Never wanted to commit
Guess her dowry’s quite impressive
Had to have it… all of it.

The quest for fame and fortune
A plan …. well executed
Calculated …. set in motion
Guess you knew …. just how to do it.

Not one to bend …. to beg or bow
Consumed with raw ambition
A force to be acknowledged
A successful …. acquisition.

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One straight thru the heart
Two upside the head
One between the eyes
Why so much bloodshed?

Violence begets violence
Put your weapon on the ground
Step back and put your hands up
Please don’t make another sound.

A penetrating force
Can’t you see it’s getting worse?
Don’t turn your back, don’t look away
Don’t think that you’re the first.

You’re looking for an exit
A means right to the end
The path to glory will be paved
With smiles and evil grins.

Every good intention
Ends up upon the floor
Ripped to shreds … left for dead 
Can’t you see, there’s something more?

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Can’t stop this pain I’m feeling
Can’t get you off my mind
Wish I could forget you
Cause you’re no longer mine.

The surge of painful memories
What good are photographs?
I still can see…. your smiling face
I still can hear you laugh.

Echoes playing in my head
Can’t get away from it
They haunt me in the dead of night
Those things that we once did.

Don’t want to think about you
It’s driving me insane
Can’t  shake this feeling deep inside
It’s surfacing again.

You didn’t care, you cut me loose
You sent me off …. adrift
Left me with such guilt and shame
Consumed by the abyss.

The fire so deep inside me
The flames hot to the touch
I couldn’t speak …. I couldn’t move
I wanted you so much.

Every night… alone with you
I knew it wasn’t right
Should a known…. what could go wrong
Gave in without a fight.

I wish that I had seen the light
Was not expecting this
Rendered helpless …. paralyzed
It started with a kiss.

Empty…. cold and broken
Stripped of my dignity.
All that’s left… a hollow shell
That all that ‘s left of me.

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When I said you hurt me
You just laughed and shook your head
Left me feeling down so low
So sorry that we met.

I was in , got in too deep
Got in …. over my head
You just walked away from me
Told friends that I was dead.

When I think about you now
It’s so hard to believe
You left me lying on the floor
Had no concern for me.

Wish every single memory
Could be washed away
Forget the day I met you
Forget that fateful day.

I got in…. got in too deep
Got tangled in the weeds
There’s no doubt about it, girl
You’re not the one I need.

I should have realized then, not now
Always something up your sleeve
Nothing but a lying cheat
Who made a fool of me.

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Stop texting … e-mailing
Stop messaging me
I left …. I moved on 
Now you gotta leave. 

No pics to post
On Instagram
I’ve made it clear
Know where I stand.

Those photos together 
When I was with you
Mean nothing to me
It’s over …. we’re through.

You know I moved on
I got over you
I’ve found someone else
Stop calling me, too!

The flowers and jewelry 
Are not what I need
I need you to stop
To let go of me.

The constant reminders
Of your promises
Don’t make any difference
Cause there is no us!

Get it together
Talk to your friends
Don’t blow up my phone
Don’t do it again. 

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A lifetime of longing
No way to explain
The depth of devotion
The horror…. the pain.

The loss and the sadness
The shame and the guilt
No way to convey
What I wanted or felt.

No end point or boundaries
Now that you’re gone
The sting and the shock
Reverberates on.

The tease of a dream
Fleeting at best
A glimpse and a moment
During slumber or rest.

I watch from a distance
You’re doing fine
I see what I’m missing
You’re no longer mine.

You keep her close
You kiss her good night
You tell her you love her
You hold her tight.

You said … forever
Then walked out the door
I wasn’t enough
You wanted more.

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Don’t hide behind 
That wall of shame
Don’t think that I 
Don’t feel your pain. 

My armor cracked
And somewhat worn
My heart strings tattered
Weathered and torn.

Bruised and battered
Stripped of my pride
Bare emotions
Felt inside.

Kindred spirits
Wounded souls
The same sad story
Has been told.

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