When I realized it was over
When it was …. so plain to see
I knew there was no going back
You were done …. so done with me.
All the while, I tried pretending
Hoping you might change your mind
But, nothing that I did or said
Was going to work … this time.
Every single conversation
Ended in a fight
No chance to try and work it out
I knew that you were right.
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Pick your battles
Pick your poison
Straight up shots
So cold … they’re frozen.
100 proof
No need to doubt
There’s plenty there
Just check it out.
Shocked …. amazed
What could I do?
I spent the night
Alone with you.
Buried deep
Could not crawl out
Was tethered …. to
There was no doubt.
Battle scars
Bruised and blamed
Consumed with heartache
Lust and shame.
Longed to feel
The open air
The touch of magic
In the air.
Off the ledge
On sturdy ground
I made my way
I came back down.
No sad goodbyes
Good as it gets
Now hoping
I can just forget.
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Wish that I
Could just forget
All my mistakes
Lies and regrets.
All the time
I spent with you
I should’a known
What you would do.
Too much time
So much heartache
Not enough
No give and take
Left me with
A ton of trouble
Too much for me
To move ….. to shovel.
Up to my knees
I was waist deep
I wasn’t yours
Not yours to keep.
I tried to breathe
Knocked to the ground
Could not get up
You held me down.
With one last breath
I begged …. I pleaded
Had what you wanted
Not what I needed.
Round the block
Away from you
I knew just what
I had to do.
Came up for air
Took one last breath
Need to move on
Have to forget.
Don’t want to need
Or think of you
After all
You put me through.
Decades later
There you are
Standing there
Beneath the stars.
A walk along
This sandy beach
Now face to face
Yet, out of reach.
Two hearts collide
Just as before
No chance …. no way
To ask for more.
You reach for me
I step back
An instinct
To retreat … retract.
Afraid …. unsure
Is this a dream?
Nothing is
The way it seems.
The sand …. the wind
The ocean breeze
You’re not the one
The one I need.
A memory
Hardly enough
The tide comes in
The water’s rough.
Time to go
Let old scars be
Tossed to the wind
Blown out to sea.
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Head over heels
In love with you
Your voice ….that smile
My dreams came true.
That charm … the lust
Was so turned on
Never thought I’d wake
And you’d be gone.
On the same page
Intertwined and in sync
It took only seconds
For me to blink.
A lifetime …. a promise
No reason to doubt
Never thought for a minute
That you wanted out.
But, the closet was empty
The suitcases gone
You found someone else
It didn’t take long.
Out of my mind
Devastated …. confused
Lost …. now alone
I was duped .… I’d been used.
I was startled …. but elated
He was talking …. talking to me
The octopus was speaking
It was weird .… hard to believe.
An awkward conversation
At first I was afraid
I felt a little nervous
But admit …. I was amazed.
After years of swimming solo
Half human and half fish
Always wanting to have friends
Never thought it’d be like this.
A mermaid’s life is lonely
Never really fitting in
Hard to be accepted
It’s so hard to make new friends.
He said his name was “Ollie”
He reached out a tentacle
We made contact for the first time
It felt strange …. but magical.
Every evening, before sunset
Where the water’s not so deep
We would meet and talk for hours
At the sandbar …. near the reef.
Sometimes we would go swimming
We both loved to swim at night
We would swim and swim for hours
Underneath the pale moonlight.
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There’s a monster in my bedroom
He’s there most every night
Fearful he might run amuck
If I turn off the light.
He gets restless and quite noisy
He’s been known to wet the bed
It’s almost time for dinner
He’ ll keep quiet if he’s fed.
He eats staples and loves crayons
I leave them on the floor
He snorts if he’s still hungry
Sometimes I give him more.
He does just what he wants to
I see him in my dreams
He lives beneath my bed frame
He is friendly …. never mean.
His fur is coarse and stubby
His teeth …. an emerald green
In the light I see his long, sharp claws
They sparkle and they gleam.
He makes a lot of noises
Guess he just can’t help himself
I heard him whine and whimper
Wonder if he’s feeling well.
He offers very little
No rent or tax relief
So little compensation
Since he’s only…. Make Believe.
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I held on tight
Out on a limb
Things took a turn
Looked dark and grim.
I looked around
I hedged my bets
I thought I’d found
A safety net.
All the while
You had a plan
You soaked me dry
Then up and ran.
Never in
My wildest dreams
Did I think
You’d plot and scheme.
Play me for
A total fool
So calculating
Shrewd and cruel.
Never thought
We’d end like this
No parting words
No hug …. no kiss.
A con…. a crook
A shark …. a snake
My worst mishap
My worst mistake.
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What becomes of cons and thieves
Players who will lie, players who cheat?
In the end …. do they get theirs?
It seems so callous, seems so unfair.
On the surface … slick and shrewd
They’re calculating every move
Often vain and over zealous
Underneath sly, cold and jealous.
But, don’t confuse their wants and needs
They’ll cut you loose …. then watch you bleed.
No remorse …. no consequence
No desire to make amends.
You hope for karma coming through
To give them back what they are due
But, what if evil does prevail
If justice can’t balance the scales?
There’s no guilt …. there’s no regret
You might as well give up …. forget
Be thankful that you can move on
Be grateful they are finally gone.
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Off the wall
And out of control
Out of your mind
So cunning and bold.
You take it all in
You spin it around
You spit it back out
It’s thrown on the ground.
You take what you want
You never give back
If there’s something there
You’ll follow the tracks.
A taker …. a thief
You look for the gold
Your heart can be bought
Your heart can be sold.
There’s ice in your veins
An empty black hole
A scammer, a cheater
So heartless …. so cold.
I should have known
But I missed the clues
Wish I had known
Before I met you.
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