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I watched you from the window
Watched you walk across the street
I knew that it was over
Though you tried to be discreet.

The bill sent from the florist
The excuse when I asked why
I smelled her sweet perfume
Did my best ….tried not to cry.

The candles …  and the flowers
No longer meant for me
I had to let you go
It was time to set you free.

The late nights …. way too often
I knew what you would say
I tried, but I just couldn’t
Couldn’t make you want to stay.

I couldn’t make you happy
There was just no pleasing you
You said that you were sorry
Can’t you see “it’s me” …. not you?

My heart was badly damaged
It was broken, cracked in two.
No way that we could fix it
Even though I still loved you.

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That total empty feeling
What’s become of me?
That feeling deep within my soul

Drained all my energy.

Quietly without a sound
No whistles and or…bells
You had sadly given up
It was over… I could tell.

A spark that set my world on fire
Ignited every flame
Now had lost its amber glow
Each day was just the same.

No arguments, or unkind words
Just a sad  and empty stare
No parting explanation
You simply didn’t care.

No passion left , no tenderness
No twinkle in your eye 
Anxious to walk out the door
You simply said, “Goodbye”.

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Looking for that special something
That sparkle and that shine
Always on the prowl, the quest
Never know just what I’ll find.

Keeping my eyes open
I will do it all  again
No concerns or worries 
Now that we’ve become “just friends.”

Maybe at the coffee shop
Or time spent at the club
Waiting for that feeling
When you think that you’re in love.

The chemistry … the energy
What I once felt for you
You’ve been down this road before
You know just what I’ll do.

It won’t be  long, till she’ll be mine
I’ll whisper in her ear
Tell her what she wants to know
Just what she wants to hear.

I’ll hold her close, I’ll make her feel
Like she’s never felt before
But when I’m done, I’ll move on
I’ll walk right out the door.

The high can’t last forever
She’ll cry when I  move on
I’ll drop her like I did with you
In a heartbeat …. I’ll be gone.

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A thousand people filled the streets
Afraid I might see you
One in a thousand ain’t good odds
Somehow …. I guess I knew.

Thought aloud …. what would I do
If I ran into you?
Fearful I might fall apart
What would I … would I do?

Hoped destiny would intervene
No chance we’d meet again
But the moon …. the stars …the universe
Did not want this to end.

There you were in front of me
The gates of hell had opened
I stood frozen ….paralyzed
My name so softly spoken.

Time stood still … the waters parted
Our eyes met …. like before
A wrinkle in time …. a blip and a nod
I was shaken right to the core.

The same hot rush… couldn’t help myself
Still spellbound by your charm.
You reached out, gave me a hug
You held me in your arms.

Pandora’s box …. A rabbit hole
I knew this can’t end well
Seeing you …. too much for me
A vision straight from hell.

How ya been? You look good
Words spoken in slow motion
Mesmerized … yet, horrified
Overwhelmed with pure emotion.

Let’s get together, have a drink
You sounded so sincere
I tried to smile, to seem relaxed
While fighting back the tears.

I’ll give you my new number
Let’s get together … we’ll catch up
Inside I shouted to myself
Are you crazy? What the fuck?

Though anxiously …. I forced a smile
Then walked on down the street
Hoping this was the last time 
That we would ever meet.

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Love sleeping close beside you
In the morning, before dawn
See your head upon the pillow
Your skin so soft and warm. 

I’ve counted every minute
Every moment spent with you
Fearful you might walk away
I don’t know what I’d do.

I saw you at the coffee shop
Through the window sitting there
I saw you touch her face …. her lips
Then  stroke her long, blonde hair.

Did you meet somewhere… by accident
“On line” or in the park?
Was she someone that came on to you?
Did you meet there …. after dark?

Why can’t we talk about it?
Can’t you see that I’m upset?
What about our plans together?
Did you simply just forget?

What went wrong , tell me the reason
Are you bored …. want someone new?
I can change my hair …. my clothes …. my nails
Please …. tell me what to do.

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You were never truly mine 
I held on way too tight
Too much, too soon …. I should have known
I should have seen the light.

I couldn’t breathe …. I couldn’t see
Nothing mattered much to me
Wished that we had never met
Wished that you had let me be.

Love lost …. denied .… then cast away
You were …. as cold as ice
You set your sights …. then followed thru
Your aim was quite precise. 

Such easy prey .… so vulnerable
A mere open invitation
The warning signs were clearly there
Was lured into temptation.

Foolishly…. yes, I gave in
I couldn’t pull away
Hung onto every single word 
Everything you had to say.

Now time is up .… you’re on your way
You’ve found somebody new
Someone naive and innocent
Who will fall in love with you.

That’s your game…your M.O.
You’re quite the lone contender
A player ….. heartless through and through
Who thrives on sweet surrender.

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Whatever you have done before
Won’t matter much to me
When there is something that I want
Desire or maybe need.

I don’t remember yesterday
I focus on today
Cravings must be satisfied
You know… I’ll find a way.

Make me  a cup of coffee
Wash my clothes and mop the floor
Sweep off the porch and mow the lawn
That’s  what I need you for.

I’m tired of watching TV
Take me out and buy me lunch
Pick me some wild begonias
Not just one …. pick me a bunch.

No one  to take me shopping
Guess, I’ll have to go with you
Make sure that you’re available 
Pick me up at half past two.

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I should have known
Things never last
Now I am just
Part of your past.

How many lovers
Become …. “Just Friends”
When you decide
Things need to end?

Another crush
A pretty face
So into her
You love the chase.

What can I do?
My number’s blocked
You changed your mind
Then changed the locks.

Here’s your coat
Grab your hat
Pushed out the door
Just like that.

You turned on me
This can’t be real
There’s no concern
For how I feel.

I never thought
You’d be like this
There’s no remorse
No farewell kiss.

It won’t be long
She’ll learn the truth
She’ll get to know
That side of you.

It’s not forever
Who knows how long
Till you decide
It just feels wrong?

Here’s your coat
Grab your hat
Pushed out the door
Just like that.

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When will I feel less haunted?
I don’t know just what to do
Your face …. your smile …. a memory
Can’t  get over losing you.

Feeling lost and empty
A void that can’t be filled
A constant craving …. yearning
Being held against my will.

This twisted …. hopeless feeling
Wrapped around my crippled soul
Is branded in my memory
With every lie you ever told. 

Not worth the years I’ve lingered
Suspended in mid air
Hoping you would change your mind
Wanting you to care.

Take back all of the promises
The  swell of tears …. the threats 
Give me back the way I felt
Before the day we met.

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