lovenlosses

The dimples and folds
Remain where they are
They can be seen
Or felt in the dark.

Weathered and worn
In need of repair
A few lumps and bumps
Could appear anywhere.

Don’t pay any mind
To a few imperfections
Any dreaded remarks
Or hints of rejection.

All of your wrinkles
The unwanted hairs
The freckles …. the lines
That appear here and there.

It doesn’t matter
Once you take off your clothes
If you have any blemishes
Or bumps on your nose.

A clump of back hair
A pimple or two
Maybe a mole
One that’s black …. or that’s blue

Maybe you do
Or maybe you don’t
It won’t make a difference
It can’t and it won’t.

The heart and the soul
Reside deep within
Not measured by blemishes
Or color of skin.

Black, white or brown
Sunburned or tan
It doesn’t matter
It’s just who I am.

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Everything is  scrutinized
Dissected and then criticized
I can’t eat the bread …. the crust
Stop making noise …. don’t make a fuss.

Peanut butter …. tunafish
Stop watching me…. my fervent wish
Look away …. a few seconds more
Watch the teacher…. watch the door.

Let me throw my lunch away
Don’t talk to me…. no not today
Don’t “tell on me”  …. please not again
Wasting food’s a venial  sin.

The children here …. so mean …. so cruel
I hate it here …. I hate this school
What color is the teacher’s hair?
I feel so weird …. I feel so scared.

She wears a veil upon her head
A robe of black and white …: not red
A band of gold upon her finger
Her voice is soft ….. her touch so tender.

I’m plagued with thoughts …. you’d think are odd
I ask for help… I pray to God
I don’t fit in…. I don’t belong
Everything I do is wrong.

My pint of milk is warm …. not cold
We have to do …. what we are told
Can’t drink it now …. can’t get it down
Can’t let them know …. can’t make a sound.

Don’t raise your hand
Don’t say my name
Don’t say you know 
Who is to blame.

Keep a secret
Please don’t  tell
Don’t let them send me
Straight to hell.

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A meager pay for a day’s work

That’s all she’s ever seen

For dusting, sweeping, mopping up
For keeping their house clean.

A scrub brush and a vacuum
Her tools , tools of the trade
She dressed in white, her uniform
Their beds were always made.

She carried a small tote with her
Filled with old grey rags
She cleaned their toilets everyday
Placed trash inside a bag.

She organized their books and pens
Did dishes …. pots and spoons

She took care of everything
Then served them lunch …. at noon.

She rarely spoke , was seldom heard

Prepared their snack at three

Kept to herself as ordered to

Served cookies and hot tea.

Or thanked her for her help.

At 5 pm, she headed home
She lived all by herself
No one gave a second thought

Christmas Day …. she made their dinner

Not a word spoken or mentioned

She spent the day all by herself

Spent Christmas

in the kitchen.

Never thought that she might want

To sit for just awhile

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Stop and rest, take a break

Put down that kitchen towel.

No presents , cards or wishes

No holiday drinks or cheer
No kind words or offerings

They made this very clear.

There’d be no Christmas bonus

No tips or extra fare

Nothing was done to convey

Or show how much they cared.

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Reblogged from lovenlosses. 12/15/2017.

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Don’t come back for seconds
Shields up …. On red alert
Tired of wasting my time
So tired of getting hurt.

Just a stop along the way
You’re not that into me
Just a respite …. a quick fix
So please just let me be.

I’m still broken-hearted
You left me …. high and dry
It’s more than decades later ….
And … I’m still … still asking why.

Feeling so confused and hurt
Would have done most anything
Tried so hard to pretend
But we can’t start again.

You told me that …. it’s over
That you had changed your mind
So don’t come back…. back over
Not for seconds …. not this time.

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Christmas is here
But not like I remember
The  family …. the friends
Coming over for dinner.

No joy …. just remorse
A heart filled with sorrow
No laughter …. surprises
Feeling empty …. so hollow.

Trying so hard
To feel Christmas cheer
But everyone’s gone
There’s nobody here.

So what’s the point?
Why put up a tree?
There’s no one here
I’m alone …. it’s just me.

The parties ….  the joy
The cookies …. the gifts
It’s all gone …. I give up
I’ve lost all of it.

The lights in the windows
But who really cares?
No family to be with
This just isn’t fair.

Feeling so sad
Missing you most
I feel so alone
I’ve given up hope.

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Burned to the ground
Deliberately set
There is no proof
That’s what they said.

Too close for comfort
Too hot to touch
All my belongings
All of my stuff.

Hard to believe
Someone  that I know
Set my house ablaze
Set my world aglow.

Seething with hate
Filled with revenge
Will they attempt
To do this again?

Who could it be?
A friend or a foe
Someone that’s close
Someone that I know?

Perhaps an ex
With a seething agenda
Someone I’ve forgotten
Who recalls …. who remembers.

Someone that I hurt
Who still feels the pain
Don’t think it’s the end
They’ll be back again.

Gasoline and a match
So hard to believe 
Someone I once loved
Could do this to me. 

Ghosted …. you walked away
I’m lying here alone
Wishing you were here with me
Can’t believe you left …. you’re gone.

Late night sex …. the wine …. your body
Lying …. next to mine
Never thought you’d ever go
Didn’t see the warning signs.

I’m haunted by your laugh …. your voice
The echoes in my head
Knowing it was all a lie
Everything you ever said.

CHORUS:

GHOSTED…..You’re long gone
GHOSTED ….. What went wrong?
Can’t believe you walked away
Nothing left …. nothing left to say.

Feeling like a fool
Nothing that I wouldn’t do
Anything you wanted from me
To prove my love for you.

No text …. no calls …. no contact
Just an empty dresser drawer
You took it all …. left nothing
Nothing left to come back for.

CHORUS:

GHOSTED…..You’re long gone
GHOSTED ….. What went wrong?
Can’t believe you walked away
Nothing left …. nothing left to say.

GHOSTED …. no remorse
You walked right out the door
GHOSTED …. no looking back
Nothing left to come back for.

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