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Broken….. crushed beyond repair
Facing that ….. you just don’t care
Devastated… badly bruised
Realized that ….. I’ve been used.

Hard to accept …. the bitter truth
I was duped …. got played  by you
Can’t let go ….. of memories
Never dreamt ….. that you’d hurt me.

Thought that we ….. would be enough
Thought that we ….. were both in love
You got bored …. you needed more 
You pushed me out…. right out the door.

Met her at a local bar
Was close by…. it wasn’t far
After work ….. on your  way home
I sat waiting …. home alone.

You turned on …. that sly sweet charm
Didn’t have to twist her arm
She was easily seduced
How well I know …. that side of you.

Unsuspecting ….. easily led
You took her …. took her to bed
She held on tight …. you made her come
You like em skinny … you like em young.

From left field…. how could she know?
She had no clue… you’d up and go
You led her on …. showed no remorse
You simply closed …. then locked the door.

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Karen … such a busy body
Can’t keep things to herself
Why can’t you mind your business?
Who’s asking for your help?

Butting in and looking on
Always on patrol
Can’t manage when you’re not in charge
Always in control. 

Eavesdropping ….. intruding
Always adding your two cents 
Who asked for your opinion?
This behavior has to end.

Too quick to pass judgment 
Without knowing all the facts
Surmising and concluding
You lack couth and have no tact.

Surveillance is your pastime
Spying is your game
You keep tabs on everyone
You know each one by name.  

You are a true Budinski
A snoop …. a peeping Tom
A  wolf wearing sheep’s clothing 
Always knows what’s going on.

You need to watch your manners
You’re offensive and quite rude
Stop being so damn nosey
Find something else to do.

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A new start, a new beginning
A time for peace, a time for forgiving
Open the door, let go and be free
The weight will be lifted, it’s time to believe.

Shed all of the old burdening feelings
Of anger and pain, begin to start healing
Life is short, a mere fleeting moment
Rejoice and enjoy, the bliss of atonement.

Holding a grudge, casting blame
Will only bring heartache, will only bring shame
Open your heart, open your arms
Step into the sunlight, away from the storm.

Farewell to the bludgeoning, cruelty and crazies
A New Year begins, a chance to show mercy
To those who deserve it, to those who may not
Give all that you can, and all that you’ve got.

Banish the demons, shed the black clouds
Open your heart, remove the dark shroud
The New Year is here, a new day beginning
A time for peace, a time for forgiving.

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Reblog: DECEMBER 31, 2018

You look away
It’s apparent …. it’s true
There’s distance between us
Can’t get close to you.

The look in your eyes
The change in your voice
What more can I  do?
I don’t have a choice.

I’ve begged and I’ve pleaded
I be down on my knees
You won’t reconsider
You won’t forgive me.

For you …. all that matters
Is that I have lied
You’re passing judgement
While I sit and cry.

Hardened and cold
You turn your back 
I should’a known
How you would react.

Can’t you show mercy?
Let go of your pride
There’s strength in forgiveness
I’m sorry …… I lied.

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That night on the beach
Didn’t know I was sober
Till I looked in your eyes
I knew it was over.

I wanted to run
Didn’t know what to do
I couldn’t believe it
I was losing you.

That sudden shock I felt
When I realized
Things weren’t the same
You had cheated … you lied.

The slightest hesitation
When we kissed good night
Before turning over
You said, “Not tonight”.

You kept your phone close
I knew that sweet smile
When you got a text
After waiting awhile.

Somebody new…
Oh, the thrill of it all
That anxious response
When you got a call.

On the plane home
You read your book
I knew it was over
I knew that look.

I tried not to cry
I looked away
There was nothing more
Nothing left to say.

I wanted to run
I didn’t know what to do
I couldn’t believe it
I had lost you.

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Back of the line
You never come first
You’re second choice
The one who gets hurt.

The brunt of his jokes
The one standing by
The one who’s deceived
With bullshit and lies.

You need to be strong 
Be sure of yourself
He’ll leave you behind
He’s out for himself.

Why sit by the phone
Hoping he’ll text?
When all that he does
Is use you for sex.

Show him the door 
Tell him to leave
You’re not what he wants
He’s not what you need.

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The dimples and folds
Remain where they are
They can be seen
Or felt in the dark.

Weathered and worn
In need of repair
A few lumps and bumps
Could appear anywhere.

Don’t pay any mind
To a few imperfections
Any dreaded remarks
Or hints of rejection.

All of your wrinkles
The unwanted hairs
The freckles …. the lines
That appear here and there.

It doesn’t matter
Once you take off your clothes
If you have any blemishes
Or bumps on your nose.

A clump of back hair
A pimple or two
Maybe a mole
One that’s black …. or that’s blue

Maybe you do
Or maybe you don’t
It won’t make a difference
It can’t and it won’t.

The heart and the soul
Reside deep within
Not measured by blemishes
Or color of skin.

Black, white or brown
Sunburned or tan
It doesn’t matter
It’s just who I am.

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Everything is  scrutinized
Dissected and then criticized
I can’t eat the bread …. the crust
Stop making noise …. don’t make a fuss.

Peanut butter …. tunafish
Stop watching me…. my fervent wish
Look away …. a few seconds more
Watch the teacher…. watch the door.

Let me throw my lunch away
Don’t talk to me…. no not today
Don’t “tell on me”  …. please not again
Wasting food’s a venial  sin.

The children here …. so mean …. so cruel
I hate it here …. I hate this school
What color is the teacher’s hair?
I feel so weird …. I feel so scared.

She wears a veil upon her head
A robe of black and white …: not red
A band of gold upon her finger
Her voice is soft ….. her touch so tender.

I’m plagued with thoughts …. you’d think are odd
I ask for help… I pray to God
I don’t fit in…. I don’t belong
Everything I do is wrong.

My pint of milk is warm …. not cold
We have to do …. what we are told
Can’t drink it now …. can’t get it down
Can’t let them know …. can’t make a sound.

Don’t raise your hand
Don’t say my name
Don’t say you know 
Who is to blame.

Keep a secret
Please don’t  tell
Don’t let them send me
Straight to hell.

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A meager pay for a day’s work

That’s all she’s ever seen

For dusting, sweeping, mopping up
For keeping their house clean.

A scrub brush and a vacuum
Her tools , tools of the trade
She dressed in white, her uniform
Their beds were always made.

She carried a small tote with her
Filled with old grey rags
She cleaned their toilets everyday
Placed trash inside a bag.

She organized their books and pens
Did dishes …. pots and spoons

She took care of everything
Then served them lunch …. at noon.

She rarely spoke , was seldom heard

Prepared their snack at three

Kept to herself as ordered to

Served cookies and hot tea.

Or thanked her for her help.

At 5 pm, she headed home
She lived all by herself
No one gave a second thought

Christmas Day …. she made their dinner

Not a word spoken or mentioned

She spent the day all by herself

Spent Christmas

in the kitchen.

Never thought that she might want

To sit for just awhile

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Stop and rest, take a break

Put down that kitchen towel.

No presents , cards or wishes

No holiday drinks or cheer
No kind words or offerings

They made this very clear.

There’d be no Christmas bonus

No tips or extra fare

Nothing was done to convey

Or show how much they cared.

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Reblogged from lovenlosses. 12/15/2017.

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