lovenlosses

I live a parallel existence
You don’t see things as I do
I see the world in one way
I feel separate, different from you.

I’m having trouble fitting in
Not in agreement or in sync
You don’t understand what I see
Or the way I feel or think.

The road less traveled is my path
I walk alone….all on my own
I can’t seem to relate to you
I’d rather spend my time alone.

Rigid, harsh, and unfeeling
Impervious to my emotions
You see one tiny raindrop
While I see the wide, blue ocean.

Stepping away, keeping to myself
No reason to impose
You go your way and I’ll go mine
Sometimes that’s how it goes.

A loner, a recluse…better off by myself
Always trying to figure it out
No longer wanting or needing your help
Don’t really care what it’s all about.

Please leave me alone , don’t call and don’t write
There are no words left for me to say
All that I want is to be free of you
I am leaving ….I am walking away.

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He followed me from place to place
No idea that he was there
He stared, and watched me from a distance
But, I never notice him anywhere.

Knew my schedule, where I worked
How long it took me to get dressed
Where I stopped for coffee in the morning
Had my number and home address.

I’d never met him, had no idea
Never noticed or paid attention
But he was always close behind
Heading in the same direction.

We walk around, think we’re alone
No idea someone is watching
All by yourself you come and go
While an admirer could be stalking.

All this time I didn’t know
I had this shadow next to me
Too self absorbed to look around
Too distracted, I didn’t see.

Keep your doors locked, your windows, too
Be more aware of your surroundings
Look around, take notice of
When I look back it seems astounding.

To think that I was unaware
That someone was tailing me
I was oblivious, in the dark
I was blind, just didn’t see.

He was arrested, held behind bars
He was also being followed
He had a history was being charged
The grave they found was cold and shallow.

He was a rapist, who killed and maimed
Stalked his victims one by one
I was thankful I’d been spared
When they had told me what he’d done.

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YOUTUBE: MICHAEL JACKSON….SOMEBODY’S WATCHING ME

Walking on the beach
The smell of clean salt air
No one else around
I’m on my own out there.

The tide went out that morning
It was slowly coming in
The seaweed and the sand crabs
All were scattering in the wind.

I had worn my light grey jacket
It was getting pretty cold
I wore my Yankee’s baseball cap
It looked tattered, getting old.

Always thought it brought me luck
It fit me perfectly, just right
I was happy I had worn it
On the this cold and windy night.

The reflection of the moon
Was glistening on the water
I watched the waves come in
To my surprise found a sand dollar.

It was half way in the sand
I hoped it wasn’t broken
I bent down to pick it up
A great find…..an ocean token.

Fortunately it was intact
No chips, no cracks to speak of
It looked smooth and perfectly white
Standing there under the moonlight.

Love my walks down on the beach
They bring me solace, ease my mind
Rich in peacefulness and calm
I leave my worries all behind.

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Summer breezes, lemonade
Iced tea and watermelon
Burgers sizzling on the grill
Hope raindrops don’t start falling.

Grab the towels, awnings up
Getting ready for a downpour
Hoping it will pass us by
It’s not what we had planned for.

Bring the salads up to the porch
The chips, and paper dishes
Hoping we can still have fun
Maybe the storm will miss us.

Hotdogs, chili, pickles and more
Put on your bathing suit
Someone turn the music back on
Put out the cookies, and fruit.

Children running, dogs are barking
The sprinklers came back on
Everyone feels a sense of relief
The dark clouds are now gone.

Summertime fun, laughter and games
Backyard picnicking with friends
Everyone is happy now
The sun is shining once again.

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YOUTUBE: NORA JONES….SUMMERTME

Waiting for you
To close the door
Stop begging and pleading
Stop asking for more.

You knew from the start
That I ran around
Now you are whining
All over town.

Stop crying, man up
What did you expect?
Did you think you could change me
Put a chain round my neck?

I’m packing my bags
I’m saying good bye
It wasn’t all bad
You were a nice guy.

But, who is the loser
Is it me, Is it you?
You live in denial
No idea what to do.

If you had been stronger
And stood up to me
Maybe I would have stayed
But, you were too blind to see.

You sat home alone
Your cell phone in hand
Hoping I’d call
Like a boy, not a man.

While you were asleep
I was out dancing
Getting it on
I welcomed advances.

You knew all along
It would end this way
Everyone told you
To leave, walk away.

You kept on trying
You thought they were wrong
You should have listened
You waited too long.

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The moss upon the trees
Covered in morning dew
Glistening in the sunlight
Beneath the sky so blue.

The chatter of the sparrows
The yellow chickadees
The squirrels running all about
Brings back the memories.

Running barefoot, topless
My hair blowing in the wind
Not a care in the world
I still remember when.

I wore grandma beads, a dirty face
Drank water from a hose
Looked for sticks and crickets
Dandelions and small green toads.

Watched the sky for different shapes
In the clouds so far above
Laid in the grass for hours
Feeling happy, feeling loved.

Life was oh so simple then
No fanfare and no glitter
Playing in the backyard
With my teenage babysitter.

We built forts, ran thru the creek
So few hours in the day
Never wanted to fall asleep
All we wanted was to play.

Hide n seek, or stick ball
Climbing trees and over fences
Nothing seemed impossible
No time for worry or defenses.

Summers were the very best
Always outside having fun
We ran and played all day long
Under the scorching sun.

Running here, running there
Pulling wagons, riding bikes
Waiting for the ice cream truck
Pure afternoon delight.

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The lyrics reach out
They speak to me
The music conveys
What used to be.

The way it was
Before you left
When my heart was yours
It’s all in my head.

The tears still come
They fill my eyes
I need to let go
I keep asking why.

Obsessed, overwhelmed
With thoughts of you
So consumed with loss
What can I do?

The years pass by
You’re long gone
You never looked back
You moved on.

What’s holding me back?
This isn’t love
A mere obsession
Is all I think of.

It’s wrapped around
My heart and soul
It’s taken my joy
I’m out of control.

Set me free
Break the chains
Get out of my mind
Stop causing me pain.

The memory of you
Is no longer real
It’s morphed into something
That I need to feel.

Twisted, distorted
Like a worn out old tape
Played too many times
While asleep or awake.

Turn down the volume
Play a new song
This one keeps repeating
It’s been playing too long!

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Trying too hard
Hanging on tight
Won’t save you the heartache
The pain every night.

She’ll walk out regardless
It’s not about you
She has places to go
She has things to do.

The longing, the craving
Get ahold of yourself
Stop being so needy
Take care of yourself.

Whining and sulking
Makes you look so small
It’s not attractive
Not appealing at all.

Step back, step away
Find your center, your core
She’s not what you need
Stop asking for more.

Let go of the reigns
Cut the ties, cut the rope
You can’t hold her back
There is simply no hope.

You’re making it worse
The punishing, the shaming
It’s time to stop all the
Guilt and the blaming.

You can’t hold on
When she longs to be free
You’ve got to move on
To find what you need.

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So fussy, so angry
Filled with remorse
Taking it out on
The weak link, of course.

Wondering what
Motivates you
To get up in the morning
With so little to do.

So quick to find fault
You gossip and mourn
The loss of your loved ones
Brings pain and such scorn.

The others around you
Annoy and outrage
Your sense of balance
The life that you’ve made.

You want them near
Yet push them away
A reminder of you
In your younger days.

You sit there and judge
You hide and you crawl
Unable to stand up
For fear you will fall.

The numbers, the cards
They help you to mask
The sorrow inside you
For coming in last.

You’ve made me uncomfortable
I’m not going to stay
I shouldn’t have come
I’m walking away.

What was I thinking?
Should have known better
Like birds of a feather
You all stick together.

You have your cronies
Your pals, so called friends
Guess I knew from the start
That I didn’t fit in.

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We’re all sitting here
The music’s too loud
Everyone’s talking
The roar of the crowd.

The stares from a stranger
The smell of bad food
Too much beer and alcohol
The jokes stale and crude.

The forced conversations
The winks from the bar
They watch from a distance
You stay where you are.

Too many people
Lonely and sad
Are venting hostility
Because they’re so mad.

Resenting their spouses
Hating their jobs
No courage to change things
They whine and they sob.

Intoxicated
And out of control
Can’t get it together
The same story gets told.

Time to change focus
Get out of this game
You need some direction
Not more of the same.

Read a good book
Check out the museum
Make some new friends
Change what you’re doing.