lovenlosses

Still sheltering in
Confined to our homes
Staying away
Spending time on our own.


Cleaning out closets
Our files and our drawers
Tired of all this
Can’t take any more.


We want to go out
Meet at the cafe
But due to the virus
Most stay away.


We sit at the tables
Spread six feet apart
It’s just not the same
And.. it’s breaking our hearts.


We can’t go to work
Sit alone in our lofts
We want to go back
We’re feeling pissed off.


You know what we need
We need a vaccine
This virus is making us
Sick and so mean.

We’re feeling so mad
Frustrated with folks
Who won’t wear a mask
And... think it’s a hoax.


When will this be over
We need to ask Fauci
Tired of us feeling
So hopeless and grouchy.

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When I looked into your eyes
I knew it was the end
Never in my life….would I
Be seeing  you again.

You  moved to the south of France
It hurt to hear the news
You would be so far away
I longed  to be with you.

I spent my time in deep despair
Wanting  us to be together
Thought that we would work  it out
What  we had… would last forever.

So much pain… I  felt within
I was a fool to let you go
I wanted to reach out to you
I wanted you to know.

But pride and ego held me back
This was real…not some vacation
It was hard to face the bitter truth
You wanted this separation.

I got the letter yesterday
From your sister….your best friend
You had passed….you were gone
You asked for me, right at the end.

But, when I looked into your eyes
I  knew….I knew it then
Deep in my heart , deep in my soul
We’d never see each other again.

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When I think of what I did
I feel sick… so sick inside
For all the hurt and pain I caused
All the times I made you cry.

The hateful things you heard me say
All my cruel and thoughtless
ways
I led you on …. I gave you hope
But in the end….I let you go.

When I stayed and hung around
I made you feel so low, so down
I always wanted something more
Too hard to please and often bored.

You deserved…. a better life
A bigger piece…. a bigger slice
I had no plan to stick around
To take on roots…. to settle down.

I cut you loose….the thing to do
Cause I just wasn’t into you
But now I have so much regret
I always will … I can’t forget.

When I looked into your eyes
I stood there and watched you cry
How could I simply  walk away?
I can’t forget that shameful day.

To say I’m sorry is not enough
You’ll always be the one I love
I’ll pay the price until I die
For all the times I made you cry.

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Where did you go?
Why did you leave?
I bought it all
I totally believed.


Why did you lie?
I thought that you cared
Those were crocodile tears
You never played fair.


No one like you
Have I known before
Why didn't I see
That you wanted more?


Thought I was enough
All the passion, the lust
But you packed it all up
You took all of your stuff.


I looked at your phone
I read your texts
Found out about her
Knew she was up next.


She doesn't know
But you'll leave her too
You can't stay with someone
Once they're in love with you.


She won't know what hit her
Like all  of the rest
She'll never be with you
She won't pass the test.

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Left me out in the cold
Didn’t know it was forever
Said we should be friends
But, now you’re both together.

All the plans that we had made
Shot to hell because of you
Said you’d never leave me, never
What am I suppose to do?

I sit here crying every night
Sit here looking at the door
Thinking you’ll be back for me
But, I guess you wanted more.

Now you’re gone, you’re gone for good
I never thought, thought that you would
Walk away and leave me here
You didn’t care or shed a tear.

I was left out in the cold
Didn’t know it was forever
Never thought you’d really go
Thought we’d always be together.

The pain in my heart
Sadly persists
Through decades of torment
It is… what it is.

The darkness,…pervasive
Insidious
It won’t let me go
So lascivious.

Driven to madness
Nights without sleep
Haunted by memories
Embedded so deep.

The pull of addiction
Too much to resist
Has left me damaged
Has set me adrift.

No end in sight
Can’t contain this desire
Can’t stop the longing
Can’t put out this fire.

Falling from the ledge
Did I jump or  did I fall?
You were standing there beside me
Up against the red brick wall.

You kept saying, you didn’t mean it
But, I knew where this would lead
I saw you two together
I knew you planned to leave.

You’ve become so damned impatient
I could tell that you were bored
You seldom took my hand in yours
My feelings were ignored.

You had lost all need or interest
Once a challenge, now mundane
Now you’ve decided to pay attention
So afraid you were to blame.

When I fell from the ledge
Did I jump or did I fall?
Are you the cause, or motive
The reason for it all?

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I’m not your shield…I’m not your cover
I won’t be there to break your fall
I have no desire to ease or comfort
I’m not the one you need to call.

If you’re hurting , feeling pain
Don’t look to me to bring you solace
I don’t give a damn about you
I am clearly cold and callous.

I have no time for idle chatter
Don’t come by, I won’t be home
I don’t play well with others
I prefer to be alone.

Call your brother or your mother
Someone else who understands
I’ll be down the beach sunbathing
Near the water, near the sand.

I’m not your welcoming committee
They’ll be no pies, no casseroles
My fence is built ten feet high
To keep out vagrants, to keep out trolls. 

Get the message, Read the sign
“KEEP OUT, No One Is Home
Keep your distance, Stay away
I prefer to be alone!”

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I believe in angels
Pixie dust, fairies and trolls
I have fantasies of creatures
Wearing crowns of solid gold.

I see them in the forest
Up high…. there in the trees
Sometimes I hear them calling
Calling out my name to me.

A myriad of colors
The smell of honey in the air
The humming birds and dragonflies
No time to stop and stare.

The mermaid’s van parked just outside
Near the weeping willow tree
She invites us in for an early lunch
Serving cookies and iced tea.

She has chocolates, caramels and licorice
Arranged on a lovely floral dish
Says she has magic powers
And can grant us each…. a wish.

I wished  for  a week of  sunshine
It had rained the last three days
Suddenly I felt a gentle breeze
Saw the sun’s bright golden rays.

Not that I  ever doubted
After all she had a wand
She waved it a few times in the air
And at once …the rain was gone.

The porcupine asked for a blanket
The rabbit … a pink candy cigar
I ate three caramels and a cookie
While sipping tea from a mason jar.

We had pleasant conversation
Everyone was so polite
I sat near an open window
So  I could see the bright sunlight.

Lunch was quite delicious
We thanked the mermaid graciously
She smiled as we walked out the door
Said she enjoyed our company.

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Don’t take me on vacation
To try and ease the blow
Don’t think it  makes it easier
Cause I don’t want to go.

The memories, the photographs
The wine and candlelight
The time we spent together
And what about last night?

Can’t believe you’re breaking up with me
Guess you’ve made up your mind
You found somebody else
And now you’re  hers … no you’re not mine.

Did you meet her on the internet?
In a chat room or a bar?
Does she take the train from Jersey
Or drive in … in her own car?

I assume she is much younger
You have a thing for pretty girls
Is she chic, sophisticated
In her high heels and her pearls?

Bet she’s everything …you wished for
Everything I’d like to be
Does she prefer black coffee
Or an herbal English tea?

Guess she’s taller, somewhat thinner
Makes good money, her fair share
Gotta stop myself from asking
Cause I really shouldn’t care.

It’s just morbid curiosity
Can’t seem to help myself
Guess I’m gonna need a therapist
Gonna need to get some help.

Hope you’re happy, now you’re free
No more lies or secret meetings
No more late night texts and photos
If she’s lucky, you’ll stop cheating!

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PRETTY WOMAN : Roy Orbison